Borntoworry
24-10-10, 06:08
Hello to all fellow posters.
I have suffered with Health Anxiety now for 20 years since losing my dad to cancer.
The fear of getting cancer has blighted my life since. Every ache, pain and twinge brings days and nights of worry.
Now it looks possible I am going to have to relive this nightmare again with my mum.
My wonderful mum has an appointement at the hospital on tuesday.
Her symptoms all point to cancer. 4 out of 5 people that have this symptom are diagnosed with it.
I have no idea how I am going to cope. I am sitting her in tears, all ready in meltdown.
I am so scared for her, she is not a stong person either.
She lives on her own and I am thinking how an earth is she going to cope with her thoughts. She has already said to me it is a nightmare.
I have had about 6 hours sleep out of 48, scared how my family are going to suffer with me in meltdown.... how will I cope with work... how am I going to get time off to attend appointments with her but most of all terrified to see how she will cope with the possible news and leaving her alone in her little flat with the word 'C' going through her mind.
I have absolutley no idea how i am going to get through this, and the lasting effects again of seeing cancer possibly take it toll again.
I know I am going to go insane and have no idea where or who to turn too.
I don't have relatives that live close enough to call on for support either.
I can't cope.
I have suffered with Health Anxiety now for 20 years since losing my dad to cancer.
The fear of getting cancer has blighted my life since. Every ache, pain and twinge brings days and nights of worry.
Now it looks possible I am going to have to relive this nightmare again with my mum.
My wonderful mum has an appointement at the hospital on tuesday.
Her symptoms all point to cancer. 4 out of 5 people that have this symptom are diagnosed with it.
I have no idea how I am going to cope. I am sitting her in tears, all ready in meltdown.
I am so scared for her, she is not a stong person either.
She lives on her own and I am thinking how an earth is she going to cope with her thoughts. She has already said to me it is a nightmare.
I have had about 6 hours sleep out of 48, scared how my family are going to suffer with me in meltdown.... how will I cope with work... how am I going to get time off to attend appointments with her but most of all terrified to see how she will cope with the possible news and leaving her alone in her little flat with the word 'C' going through her mind.
I have absolutley no idea how i am going to get through this, and the lasting effects again of seeing cancer possibly take it toll again.
I know I am going to go insane and have no idea where or who to turn too.
I don't have relatives that live close enough to call on for support either.
I can't cope.