sammie71
25-10-10, 20:03
Hi, I'm Sam and I've just discovered this site, hoping it will help with how I'm feeling. I've been having a bad time with regards to anxiety, panic attacks, phobias and now what seems to bhe developing into agraphobia! It started about 4 months ago, 6 weeks after having my second baby. I assumed it was a post natal thing but it's just going on and on now and I feel I am losing the ability to cope and be a good wife and mother. Also returning to work in Jan and worried about how I will cope.
My initial panic attack was a day when I felt ill and believed I couldn't cope with the children. My partner came home from work and I thought that was that but a few days later I felt ill again and had a major panic attack believing I was going to be sick; again he came home from work. This happened a couple more times until I went to the doctors where I had such a bad attack I passed out. The doctor put me on 20mg Citalopram a day plus Beta Blockers. I then spent the next 5 days curled up in a ball in my bedroom unable to function. (My mum had to stay to look after my 5 year old and 2 month old baby).
Gradually I made progress and after about another 4 weeks was able to cope during the day on my own. However the panicky feelings are constantly there and I can't get rid of this constant fear about being sick to the extent it has now developed into a phobia. My main fear is that I'll be sick and unable to look after my children properly. If my son is sick I have a total melt down and can't cope for days. I also am feeling more and more depressed and so frightened especially at night. The last week has been very hard and I've avoided leaving the house as I start to be unable to breath when out and about. Luckily the children are both perfectly happy and seem unaware but I can't carry on feeling so controlled by this illness. Any help and advice would be so great as I feel very on my own with this; my partner is wonderful but it is hard for him to fully appreciate how I feel. Sorry to go on but feel a bit of relief from posting this.
Thanks Sam:wacko:
My initial panic attack was a day when I felt ill and believed I couldn't cope with the children. My partner came home from work and I thought that was that but a few days later I felt ill again and had a major panic attack believing I was going to be sick; again he came home from work. This happened a couple more times until I went to the doctors where I had such a bad attack I passed out. The doctor put me on 20mg Citalopram a day plus Beta Blockers. I then spent the next 5 days curled up in a ball in my bedroom unable to function. (My mum had to stay to look after my 5 year old and 2 month old baby).
Gradually I made progress and after about another 4 weeks was able to cope during the day on my own. However the panicky feelings are constantly there and I can't get rid of this constant fear about being sick to the extent it has now developed into a phobia. My main fear is that I'll be sick and unable to look after my children properly. If my son is sick I have a total melt down and can't cope for days. I also am feeling more and more depressed and so frightened especially at night. The last week has been very hard and I've avoided leaving the house as I start to be unable to breath when out and about. Luckily the children are both perfectly happy and seem unaware but I can't carry on feeling so controlled by this illness. Any help and advice would be so great as I feel very on my own with this; my partner is wonderful but it is hard for him to fully appreciate how I feel. Sorry to go on but feel a bit of relief from posting this.
Thanks Sam:wacko: