turtleonaleash
26-10-10, 07:00
Hi all,
Here we go.
Been suffering with anxiety all my life. Been struggling with it majorly the last year. Life altering anxiety. It's awful.
Been with the same guy for 5 years. In July (on the 22ed) we had sex. I'm on the pill, never missed one and we used the withdrawal method as well. We had sex 4 times and then I started to experience awful cramping and I got my period 4 days early. This has never happened to me before! I freaked out. My period lasted about 5 days and I kind of started to calm down.
I went to my Dr. and he started talking about pregnancy and miscarriages and all that again and my anxiety went through the roof. He gave me a urine pregnancy test which came out negative.
Another month passed and I had my period and everything seemed normal. Then the next month my period came early again along with awful cramping.
I've also been super bloated, crazy emotional, my breasts are feeling bigger and heavier and my lower back is so sore. I'm not gaining weight (number wise.) And I am still getting my period and it's heavy and lasts 5 days.
I have been nauseous but that's not really un-usual for me. I usually feel sick (especially in the mornings) and I have for years.
I had gone off the pill and then I went back on it in June, and I know it takes a while for the body to re-adjust to the hormones. But I am still just so scared. I haven't had sex since (not really great for my relationship.)
My new Dr. recently diagnosed me with IBS which I know could account for the bloating and back pain. He felt around my stomach really well. If I was truly 10-12 weeks pregnant I'm sure he would have felt the fetus?
I'm just terrified. Every day I look at my stomach in the mirror. I examine it. I notice that my veins are sticking out more. I check my breasts to see if I'm lactating. I'm afraid to leave my house because I'm afraid I'm going to go into labor randomly or I'm going to have a miscarriage. (I also suffer from agoraphobia anyways so it's just another excuse I'm using to not leave the house.)
Everyone around me thinks I'm crazy because I don't look pregnant and I'm still getting my period and I do take my birth control pill perfectly. But I just can't shake it. I can even feel movement in my stomach.
Here we go.
Been suffering with anxiety all my life. Been struggling with it majorly the last year. Life altering anxiety. It's awful.
Been with the same guy for 5 years. In July (on the 22ed) we had sex. I'm on the pill, never missed one and we used the withdrawal method as well. We had sex 4 times and then I started to experience awful cramping and I got my period 4 days early. This has never happened to me before! I freaked out. My period lasted about 5 days and I kind of started to calm down.
I went to my Dr. and he started talking about pregnancy and miscarriages and all that again and my anxiety went through the roof. He gave me a urine pregnancy test which came out negative.
Another month passed and I had my period and everything seemed normal. Then the next month my period came early again along with awful cramping.
I've also been super bloated, crazy emotional, my breasts are feeling bigger and heavier and my lower back is so sore. I'm not gaining weight (number wise.) And I am still getting my period and it's heavy and lasts 5 days.
I have been nauseous but that's not really un-usual for me. I usually feel sick (especially in the mornings) and I have for years.
I had gone off the pill and then I went back on it in June, and I know it takes a while for the body to re-adjust to the hormones. But I am still just so scared. I haven't had sex since (not really great for my relationship.)
My new Dr. recently diagnosed me with IBS which I know could account for the bloating and back pain. He felt around my stomach really well. If I was truly 10-12 weeks pregnant I'm sure he would have felt the fetus?
I'm just terrified. Every day I look at my stomach in the mirror. I examine it. I notice that my veins are sticking out more. I check my breasts to see if I'm lactating. I'm afraid to leave my house because I'm afraid I'm going to go into labor randomly or I'm going to have a miscarriage. (I also suffer from agoraphobia anyways so it's just another excuse I'm using to not leave the house.)
Everyone around me thinks I'm crazy because I don't look pregnant and I'm still getting my period and I do take my birth control pill perfectly. But I just can't shake it. I can even feel movement in my stomach.