carolh365
07-11-10, 20:55
Hi my name is Carol I have been sitting on the side lines reading this wonderful forum for a few months now.
I started with panic attacks last October whilst in Great Ormond Street Hospital with my son for 2 weeks, well I made 2 days ! I have never felt so ill in all my life I honestly thought I was going to die. The staff were horrible they just kept saying that a panic attack wouldnt kill me and if I didnt stay my son would not be allowed back for treatment. I didnt stay in my head I thought if I could get back to a safe place I would be alright, how wrong I was, I didnt know what way was up. I couldnt be indoors, outdoors or any where for that matter. My doctor sedated me for 2 days until she felt I was able to cope a little better.
I am fighting but its hard, I have now been diagnosed as depression as well which I never saw coming !! work is a stuggle I was off for 2 days last week as I just couldnt cope. I am going to try and go back tomorrow as my boss is not the most understanding ! Whilst I was off for 2 weeks from GOSH he sent an email round telling everyone why I was off even though he had been asked to keep it quite.
I am really struggling, cant sleep just feel like crying all the time, I am also diabetic and waiting to go on insulin, my son is also suffering he is now a school refuser at the age of 9, currently under CAMS waiting to be assessed for aspergers. He also has major mobility problems.
I feel at the moment that life is throwing everything it can at me to try and bring me down.
Sorry for rant, it made be feel better :)
I started with panic attacks last October whilst in Great Ormond Street Hospital with my son for 2 weeks, well I made 2 days ! I have never felt so ill in all my life I honestly thought I was going to die. The staff were horrible they just kept saying that a panic attack wouldnt kill me and if I didnt stay my son would not be allowed back for treatment. I didnt stay in my head I thought if I could get back to a safe place I would be alright, how wrong I was, I didnt know what way was up. I couldnt be indoors, outdoors or any where for that matter. My doctor sedated me for 2 days until she felt I was able to cope a little better.
I am fighting but its hard, I have now been diagnosed as depression as well which I never saw coming !! work is a stuggle I was off for 2 days last week as I just couldnt cope. I am going to try and go back tomorrow as my boss is not the most understanding ! Whilst I was off for 2 weeks from GOSH he sent an email round telling everyone why I was off even though he had been asked to keep it quite.
I am really struggling, cant sleep just feel like crying all the time, I am also diabetic and waiting to go on insulin, my son is also suffering he is now a school refuser at the age of 9, currently under CAMS waiting to be assessed for aspergers. He also has major mobility problems.
I feel at the moment that life is throwing everything it can at me to try and bring me down.
Sorry for rant, it made be feel better :)