Worrier
09-11-10, 00:50
Hi all,
This is just an update to my previous post (see below):
I really just wanted to tell everybody how things have been going since I did this post called - Learning to Love Myself. When I did that post it was such a relief, almost like a burden lifted off my shoulders, I finally admitted to myself what the problem was and was able to share that on here.
I finally accept and realise now that I am worth something, and I deserve to be happy. To that end, after years of struggling with anxiety, I am finally free of all symptoms and have been for some time. I have taken charge of my life, put some things in order that I should have done a long time ago and it seems to have worked. I was using the anxiety as a crutch, a best friend, that I was afraid to let go of, because I was so used to it being there. But I did let it go and it left me in peace. I am so happy now, I can't tell you.
I have changed some things about me personally too, lost weight, changed my hair, which all contributed to making me feel so much better as a person and that in itself really helped. I am still searching for the confidence I need to make other big changes in my life, but I will get there in the end.
In 11 days I get to go to Manchester and meet-up with so many of my special friends on here, I am so excited and can't wait to hug and hold each and every one of them and tell them how much they mean to me and have helped me along the way. You all know who you are. Without all of you none of this would have been possible. I am indebted to you for your kindness, caring, understanding and love, I hope I can repay you all with lifelong friendship and the same considerations that you gave to me.
Roll on the 19th, I absolutely can't wait.
See you all soon.
Natalie xx
"Learning to Love Myself"
Hi,
Well first of all I want to say how much I love this site and all the great people I have met on here in the past 2 1/2 years. If it wasn't for you guys, I don't know where I would be (you all know who you are).
But the real reason for my post is just that I have come to the realisation that the key to my success (and leaving anxiety in the dust) is learning to love myself and that is what I am doing now.
For most of my life I have never felt good enough, always trying to please others, to make them happy, while neglecting to make myself happy. Living with those feelings, has at times, been unbearable but now I am on a new road, with renewed confidence and a sense that I now understand the key to happiness for me is learning to love myself, first and foremost and everything else will follow.
It is hard to look in the mirror and not like what you see everyday, but I am changing that. I am taking back my mental and physical well being each and every day and looking forward to the near future when I can finally hold my head up high, be proud of who I am in every aspect and be confident in everything.
It all started a couple of weeks ago, when I found the quote at the bottom of my post - I realise now I have been sitting in the storm for the longest time and it never left me, well now I am going to learn to dance in the rain.
It feels so good to be able to finally come to this point. Life passes by so quickly and I want to make the most of the rest of my life. I am setting myself goals everyday and will attain them. This is something that nobody else can help me with, this is a journey that only I can take. I have always been everybody else's rock and now I am going to do this for me, and me alone.
I am excited as I know this will only lead to better things. Who knows what the future holds, but I am determined to make it as anxiety free as possible, stop worrying about the small stuff, do what makes me happy and make the most of it. Enough time has been wasted, worrying, fretting, being self-destructive, its time to stop it and move on.
I hope others can relate to this and take some comfort that once you find the motivation, anything is possible.
I am very happy today and proud of myself for what I have already achieved, albeit baby steps, but its progress.
Again, thank you to all the lovely peeps on here and roll on November when I can meet you all in Manchester.
Take care
Natalie x
__________________
Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about learning to dance in the rain.
This is just an update to my previous post (see below):
I really just wanted to tell everybody how things have been going since I did this post called - Learning to Love Myself. When I did that post it was such a relief, almost like a burden lifted off my shoulders, I finally admitted to myself what the problem was and was able to share that on here.
I finally accept and realise now that I am worth something, and I deserve to be happy. To that end, after years of struggling with anxiety, I am finally free of all symptoms and have been for some time. I have taken charge of my life, put some things in order that I should have done a long time ago and it seems to have worked. I was using the anxiety as a crutch, a best friend, that I was afraid to let go of, because I was so used to it being there. But I did let it go and it left me in peace. I am so happy now, I can't tell you.
I have changed some things about me personally too, lost weight, changed my hair, which all contributed to making me feel so much better as a person and that in itself really helped. I am still searching for the confidence I need to make other big changes in my life, but I will get there in the end.
In 11 days I get to go to Manchester and meet-up with so many of my special friends on here, I am so excited and can't wait to hug and hold each and every one of them and tell them how much they mean to me and have helped me along the way. You all know who you are. Without all of you none of this would have been possible. I am indebted to you for your kindness, caring, understanding and love, I hope I can repay you all with lifelong friendship and the same considerations that you gave to me.
Roll on the 19th, I absolutely can't wait.
See you all soon.
Natalie xx
"Learning to Love Myself"
Hi,
Well first of all I want to say how much I love this site and all the great people I have met on here in the past 2 1/2 years. If it wasn't for you guys, I don't know where I would be (you all know who you are).
But the real reason for my post is just that I have come to the realisation that the key to my success (and leaving anxiety in the dust) is learning to love myself and that is what I am doing now.
For most of my life I have never felt good enough, always trying to please others, to make them happy, while neglecting to make myself happy. Living with those feelings, has at times, been unbearable but now I am on a new road, with renewed confidence and a sense that I now understand the key to happiness for me is learning to love myself, first and foremost and everything else will follow.
It is hard to look in the mirror and not like what you see everyday, but I am changing that. I am taking back my mental and physical well being each and every day and looking forward to the near future when I can finally hold my head up high, be proud of who I am in every aspect and be confident in everything.
It all started a couple of weeks ago, when I found the quote at the bottom of my post - I realise now I have been sitting in the storm for the longest time and it never left me, well now I am going to learn to dance in the rain.
It feels so good to be able to finally come to this point. Life passes by so quickly and I want to make the most of the rest of my life. I am setting myself goals everyday and will attain them. This is something that nobody else can help me with, this is a journey that only I can take. I have always been everybody else's rock and now I am going to do this for me, and me alone.
I am excited as I know this will only lead to better things. Who knows what the future holds, but I am determined to make it as anxiety free as possible, stop worrying about the small stuff, do what makes me happy and make the most of it. Enough time has been wasted, worrying, fretting, being self-destructive, its time to stop it and move on.
I hope others can relate to this and take some comfort that once you find the motivation, anything is possible.
I am very happy today and proud of myself for what I have already achieved, albeit baby steps, but its progress.
Again, thank you to all the lovely peeps on here and roll on November when I can meet you all in Manchester.
Take care
Natalie x
__________________
Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about learning to dance in the rain.