rach182
12-11-10, 20:44
Hey guys,
I new here, I've just joined the site :)! I'm just looking for some general advice, over what I'm pretty sure was a panic attack...
About two weeks ago, I woke up feeling 'weird'. It was like I wasn't really in my body, even though I knew I was - I later discovered that it was 'de-personalisation'. I've felt like this before, only, never to the same extent. As the day wore on, I started feeling more and more anxious, because this weird feeling wasn't going away. That night, I went out with my boyfriend and I thought I was going to faint, I didn't feel like I was really there, I started panicking - it was horrible.
During the night, I kept thinking really horrible thoughts, such as 'why am I with my boyfriend? Do I really love him? Should I break up with him right now?'. On top of that, I got the sense of an impending 'doom' - like something really bad was going to happen to either him or me.
I couldn't sleep that night, and the next day, I could feel my heart beating really hard, I had a bitter taste in my mouth and I couldn't breathe properly. So, I looked up my symptoms on the internet and found this site , which seemed to explain what I was feeling perfectly!
However, it's two weeks on now, and for the first week after the attack, I could still feel my heart beating, and felt like I still couldn't breathe properly. I knew that if I calmed myself down, they would go away, and luckily, it seems a bit better now.
But I still have this really horrible taste in my mouth, a bit like when I do something wrong and I get a bitter taste because I feel guilty - does anyone else experience this?
Also, I'm now really paranoid about my relationship with my boyfriend. Two weeks ago, everything was perfect, but ever since the attack, I've been getting a weird feeling from him. I know I love him, and I want to be with him, but because I had those horrible thoughts about him, I can't seem to get them out of my head. Last week, everything seemed normal again - I could think clearly and I knew I wanted to spend my life with him. However, last night, the feelings suddenly returned, and I'm starting to panic again.
It's really starting to bother me. I can deal with the panic attack, because I kept telling myself it was going to pass, but the way I'm feeling about my boyfriend makes me want to cry. There's no reason at all for me to feel so anxious, as we get along fine and we haven't been arguing or anything, so I'm freaking myself out over why this has suddenly changed.
Can anyone offer any insight as to why this has happened? I visited my doctor (on an unrelated issue) and I mentioned the panic attack. He's put me in for a blood test to see if I have an over-active thyroid, as there wasn't any stress related problem that could've brought the attack on. He also told me 'not to worry' about it and to 'put it to the back of my mind' - but how can I? Especially since I don't know why it happened or when it will happen again!
Any advice would be gratefully received :) - and thank you for reading my huge rant!
xXx
I new here, I've just joined the site :)! I'm just looking for some general advice, over what I'm pretty sure was a panic attack...
About two weeks ago, I woke up feeling 'weird'. It was like I wasn't really in my body, even though I knew I was - I later discovered that it was 'de-personalisation'. I've felt like this before, only, never to the same extent. As the day wore on, I started feeling more and more anxious, because this weird feeling wasn't going away. That night, I went out with my boyfriend and I thought I was going to faint, I didn't feel like I was really there, I started panicking - it was horrible.
During the night, I kept thinking really horrible thoughts, such as 'why am I with my boyfriend? Do I really love him? Should I break up with him right now?'. On top of that, I got the sense of an impending 'doom' - like something really bad was going to happen to either him or me.
I couldn't sleep that night, and the next day, I could feel my heart beating really hard, I had a bitter taste in my mouth and I couldn't breathe properly. So, I looked up my symptoms on the internet and found this site , which seemed to explain what I was feeling perfectly!
However, it's two weeks on now, and for the first week after the attack, I could still feel my heart beating, and felt like I still couldn't breathe properly. I knew that if I calmed myself down, they would go away, and luckily, it seems a bit better now.
But I still have this really horrible taste in my mouth, a bit like when I do something wrong and I get a bitter taste because I feel guilty - does anyone else experience this?
Also, I'm now really paranoid about my relationship with my boyfriend. Two weeks ago, everything was perfect, but ever since the attack, I've been getting a weird feeling from him. I know I love him, and I want to be with him, but because I had those horrible thoughts about him, I can't seem to get them out of my head. Last week, everything seemed normal again - I could think clearly and I knew I wanted to spend my life with him. However, last night, the feelings suddenly returned, and I'm starting to panic again.
It's really starting to bother me. I can deal with the panic attack, because I kept telling myself it was going to pass, but the way I'm feeling about my boyfriend makes me want to cry. There's no reason at all for me to feel so anxious, as we get along fine and we haven't been arguing or anything, so I'm freaking myself out over why this has suddenly changed.
Can anyone offer any insight as to why this has happened? I visited my doctor (on an unrelated issue) and I mentioned the panic attack. He's put me in for a blood test to see if I have an over-active thyroid, as there wasn't any stress related problem that could've brought the attack on. He also told me 'not to worry' about it and to 'put it to the back of my mind' - but how can I? Especially since I don't know why it happened or when it will happen again!
Any advice would be gratefully received :) - and thank you for reading my huge rant!
xXx