ButterflyWings
13-11-10, 11:57
i recently received an IB50 form, i filled it out with as much information as possible, and took advantage ot the A4 section at the back for "any thing else you think we need to know" i scribbled away about how i cant do this, how my partner does the food shopping and my mother buys clothes for my little girl , all of the general agoraphobia stuff
well my partner made a casual comment about how the government is cracking down on benefits , so i checked it out and i heard about ESA, the more im reading the worse im feeling ,
before all this came to my attention a have been struggling with my anxiety so a last week i visited my GP and he has put me forward to see the in house councellor, the reason i wanted to talk to someone was because i was feeling anxious and wanted to get a handle on it before it got out of control, but NOW i will be talking about my fears of being thrown to the wolves ( forced employment )
when i was originally diagnosed i felt i could exhale as i was now "noticed" after all these years of doctors looking at me me like this :huh::shrug:when i tried to tell them i didnt feel "right", i was given IB and a CBT and no one was pushing me in the back to get on with "normal" life
the CBT suggested we stop the session after weeks and weeks of appointments as i was not progressing , there was nothing more she could do for me. i had to agree, the sessions were becoming pointless because i just could not put the "training" in to action
i spoke to my partner last night and explained that even if i do pass the medical and get put on ESA that i will have to visit the jobcentre regularly and have to get a job, when i explained to him that i cant do this he just told me that i will have to,
im feeling very low , i keep sobbing all the time , the past 3 days have set me back YEARS
so so sorry for the long rant :unsure:
well my partner made a casual comment about how the government is cracking down on benefits , so i checked it out and i heard about ESA, the more im reading the worse im feeling ,
before all this came to my attention a have been struggling with my anxiety so a last week i visited my GP and he has put me forward to see the in house councellor, the reason i wanted to talk to someone was because i was feeling anxious and wanted to get a handle on it before it got out of control, but NOW i will be talking about my fears of being thrown to the wolves ( forced employment )
when i was originally diagnosed i felt i could exhale as i was now "noticed" after all these years of doctors looking at me me like this :huh::shrug:when i tried to tell them i didnt feel "right", i was given IB and a CBT and no one was pushing me in the back to get on with "normal" life
the CBT suggested we stop the session after weeks and weeks of appointments as i was not progressing , there was nothing more she could do for me. i had to agree, the sessions were becoming pointless because i just could not put the "training" in to action
i spoke to my partner last night and explained that even if i do pass the medical and get put on ESA that i will have to visit the jobcentre regularly and have to get a job, when i explained to him that i cant do this he just told me that i will have to,
im feeling very low , i keep sobbing all the time , the past 3 days have set me back YEARS
so so sorry for the long rant :unsure: