belle
14-11-10, 15:31
Hi everyone.
I've been on this forum for a few years, but of late, not coming on so much, therefore, i am going to reintroduce myself, give you a bit of background because i'm having a really hard time at the moment.
Starting at the beginning. I became agoraphobic in 1998, whilst i was pregnant with my son. At one point of my life i was roombound, couldn't even go upstairs to the bathroom on my own and definitely couldn't be alone in the house. In 2002 i started making progress even to the point where i even bought a car, and could drive up to a WHOLE MILE ON MY OWN!!!!! (i'm being sarcastic). Then one day i suffered an awful panic attack after not having one for ages, then a few days later another, then another, until i became practically housebound again. I had slipped back into old habits. I was married in 2003 but last May my (ex) husband wanted a divorce because of my mentalness. Great! I was agoraphobic and alone, who was going to want me now? I was so low and contemplated suicide, even though, he was the most VILE MAN IN THE UNIVERSE. Non supportive, verbally/physically and emotionally abusive, every day of our marriage. Anyway...i met someone else. We've been together 17 months, and he helped me make progress. Up until he came along, i had 'ONLY EVER BEEN OUT WITH MY MUM SINCE MY AGORAPHOBIA STARTED'. The very first time i went out with him, i made it 100mtrs down the road, by July, we were camping and hour away! I can still hardly believe it. Fast forward to now. I've been really unwell for 6 weeks with chronic toothache and after i had it taken out i got dry socket and i think all the feeling like crap has taken a toll on my mental health as well as my physical health. Alongside that, it's winter, i HATE the dark AND it's germ season and being emetophobic (terrified of puking) i am NOT doing well :( Sorry it's so long....but....needed to get that off my chest ;)
Thanks x
I've been on this forum for a few years, but of late, not coming on so much, therefore, i am going to reintroduce myself, give you a bit of background because i'm having a really hard time at the moment.
Starting at the beginning. I became agoraphobic in 1998, whilst i was pregnant with my son. At one point of my life i was roombound, couldn't even go upstairs to the bathroom on my own and definitely couldn't be alone in the house. In 2002 i started making progress even to the point where i even bought a car, and could drive up to a WHOLE MILE ON MY OWN!!!!! (i'm being sarcastic). Then one day i suffered an awful panic attack after not having one for ages, then a few days later another, then another, until i became practically housebound again. I had slipped back into old habits. I was married in 2003 but last May my (ex) husband wanted a divorce because of my mentalness. Great! I was agoraphobic and alone, who was going to want me now? I was so low and contemplated suicide, even though, he was the most VILE MAN IN THE UNIVERSE. Non supportive, verbally/physically and emotionally abusive, every day of our marriage. Anyway...i met someone else. We've been together 17 months, and he helped me make progress. Up until he came along, i had 'ONLY EVER BEEN OUT WITH MY MUM SINCE MY AGORAPHOBIA STARTED'. The very first time i went out with him, i made it 100mtrs down the road, by July, we were camping and hour away! I can still hardly believe it. Fast forward to now. I've been really unwell for 6 weeks with chronic toothache and after i had it taken out i got dry socket and i think all the feeling like crap has taken a toll on my mental health as well as my physical health. Alongside that, it's winter, i HATE the dark AND it's germ season and being emetophobic (terrified of puking) i am NOT doing well :( Sorry it's so long....but....needed to get that off my chest ;)
Thanks x