crazyhayz
17-11-10, 11:34
im only 23 and im so tired or this :( what im struggling most with is i can liteally feel anxiety-free, i sumtimes wonder if i even have anxiety lol, coz i do feel normal and not anxious about anything, only the actual symptoms!¬ So whats causing them in the first place?! Alot of people can pinpoint what they are anxious about when they get symptoms, whereas i cant, unless ive been having physical symptoms beforehand, which i always worry about. Someone said to me i might be worrying about the unknown, or worrying about being worried lol.
I am just so tired and upset of going through all this... I want the physical symptoms to stop..but they keep coming every single day... i go out and do things with my son, i go to college, do housework, feel happy pretty much most of the time, but its the sudden OUT OF NOWHERE symptoms im getting that i just cannot see an end to :(
I overdosed on cocaine last year and i think ive done some sort of damage to my brain or the neurotrasnsmitters...which ive read is possible...and makes it so that u cannot control physical bodily symptoms because of the nerve damage.... i feel sick and since that night ive not even drank any alcohol or smoked one cigaratte (i was a smoker for 7 years). I wasnt a regular taker of it, it was just random, but i took too much and had a huge panic attack (i had never even had one of these before, and it was so intense, to this day i dont think it was a panic attack as i was twitching all night....the next day myt vision was cloudy, and its never changed) Ive had a brain scan (ct not mri) and it was ok but im hoping my neuro im seeing sends me for an mri as i know this shows alot of things a ct cant...
I probably cant get this thought out of my head that im actually fine, wish i could, but i cant seem to shake off the fact that somethings up... i just wanna curl up and die sometimes :(
I am just so tired and upset of going through all this... I want the physical symptoms to stop..but they keep coming every single day... i go out and do things with my son, i go to college, do housework, feel happy pretty much most of the time, but its the sudden OUT OF NOWHERE symptoms im getting that i just cannot see an end to :(
I overdosed on cocaine last year and i think ive done some sort of damage to my brain or the neurotrasnsmitters...which ive read is possible...and makes it so that u cannot control physical bodily symptoms because of the nerve damage.... i feel sick and since that night ive not even drank any alcohol or smoked one cigaratte (i was a smoker for 7 years). I wasnt a regular taker of it, it was just random, but i took too much and had a huge panic attack (i had never even had one of these before, and it was so intense, to this day i dont think it was a panic attack as i was twitching all night....the next day myt vision was cloudy, and its never changed) Ive had a brain scan (ct not mri) and it was ok but im hoping my neuro im seeing sends me for an mri as i know this shows alot of things a ct cant...
I probably cant get this thought out of my head that im actually fine, wish i could, but i cant seem to shake off the fact that somethings up... i just wanna curl up and die sometimes :(