phil06
22-11-10, 23:35
I really need to discuss this with my counsellor tomorrow. I really feel over powered with my anxiety. I have a very catastrophic outlook and have a real belief that something bad will happen:
Headache - Brain Tumor.
Sore eye at the edge - I'll go blind in 2 weeks.
Fate/Destiny and Superstition - I have started to believe nightmares will come true.
Negative image/thoughts/adrenaline - Going psychotic.
Heart too fast - Heart attack.
Watching a film: Paranormal Activity - I'll become possessed. Trueman Show - My life is a soap opera.
General symptoms - It REALLY REALLY can't be just anxiety.
Depression - End of the world, bleak future.
Some bizarre new worries this week like I become frozen at work on my break and get a negative thought like "I won't be able to eat" and the thought stems from going crazy and not being able to like support myself, look after myself..I can still eat but feels so real.
Unreal/Detachment - Going crazy.
Music and noises driving me crazy - Going crazy.
Any taste near my mouth from my hands and I fear I'll catch an illness, or if I go near anybody who coughs..
*I know alot of this could be OCD.
The power of these feelings has become really bad lately. Not even always a burst of adrenaline just a real surge of fear that I believe. A few weeks ago I said I refuse to accept it's anxiety..it's really at the unmanageable state and I feel I struggle to cope..see a day out without feeling this rotten from one of these symptoms or thoughts.
Had another negative thought tonight:
"I'm too far gone, I'm terminal, I'm serious..there's no way out..I can't live a normal life"
and before I had "People are just telling me it's anxiety to shut me up, the symptoms I get are worse than other peoples, I need 10 doctors to test me but know I still won't feel better"
I honestly don't believe it when people tell me it's anxiety incase I'm undiagnosed and nobody knows..I'll be pretty buggered in a few weeks then won't I? :ohmy: I hate to feel this way but I just really want to get it off my chest because I really feel I'm dying, crazy..so over powering..it would drive me mad. :blush:
Nobody can cure me right now as I don't think it's anxiety..sorry.
Headache - Brain Tumor.
Sore eye at the edge - I'll go blind in 2 weeks.
Fate/Destiny and Superstition - I have started to believe nightmares will come true.
Negative image/thoughts/adrenaline - Going psychotic.
Heart too fast - Heart attack.
Watching a film: Paranormal Activity - I'll become possessed. Trueman Show - My life is a soap opera.
General symptoms - It REALLY REALLY can't be just anxiety.
Depression - End of the world, bleak future.
Some bizarre new worries this week like I become frozen at work on my break and get a negative thought like "I won't be able to eat" and the thought stems from going crazy and not being able to like support myself, look after myself..I can still eat but feels so real.
Unreal/Detachment - Going crazy.
Music and noises driving me crazy - Going crazy.
Any taste near my mouth from my hands and I fear I'll catch an illness, or if I go near anybody who coughs..
*I know alot of this could be OCD.
The power of these feelings has become really bad lately. Not even always a burst of adrenaline just a real surge of fear that I believe. A few weeks ago I said I refuse to accept it's anxiety..it's really at the unmanageable state and I feel I struggle to cope..see a day out without feeling this rotten from one of these symptoms or thoughts.
Had another negative thought tonight:
"I'm too far gone, I'm terminal, I'm serious..there's no way out..I can't live a normal life"
and before I had "People are just telling me it's anxiety to shut me up, the symptoms I get are worse than other peoples, I need 10 doctors to test me but know I still won't feel better"
I honestly don't believe it when people tell me it's anxiety incase I'm undiagnosed and nobody knows..I'll be pretty buggered in a few weeks then won't I? :ohmy: I hate to feel this way but I just really want to get it off my chest because I really feel I'm dying, crazy..so over powering..it would drive me mad. :blush:
Nobody can cure me right now as I don't think it's anxiety..sorry.