Ambers
24-11-10, 13:54
Hi,
Just wanted some advice really.
I have been doing CBT privately - however I am finding it really hard going. It isn't really about the theory - I have a good understanding how and why my PA/Anxiety works. But it is the getting there that I find a struggle.
Firstly, I wont drive and my father-in-law takes me. He is a lovely man but I find it difficult to keep the momentum of chat whilst on this journey (have slight social anxiety - and hard to relate to parents). He waits for me and I feel bad that he does that - and when I leave I tend to be really tired and stressed usually with a bad tummy ache.
Secondly - I have to get my mother-in-law to look after my child. I worry that she doesn't really want to look after him (she adores him - I know - but I still worry)
Then, during counselling I get really stressed, feel sick and get very bad tummy aches. I have a good counsellor but she is only treating me for PA when really I have so much more going on. I keep alot of it tucked away from my family. I also have this terrible thought in my head that actaully she doesn't care about me - she just wants to get paid - it is her job...why would I feel that way - it kinda makes me close down a bit.
Basically I hate the whole process of going to CBT. It makes me very anxious, unwell and I have stopped going recently. If I understand the whole process of CBT, do you think I can do this on my own? Is it possible to cure (I use that term lightly) yourself. I am very strong minded.
Thank you for reading
Just wanted some advice really.
I have been doing CBT privately - however I am finding it really hard going. It isn't really about the theory - I have a good understanding how and why my PA/Anxiety works. But it is the getting there that I find a struggle.
Firstly, I wont drive and my father-in-law takes me. He is a lovely man but I find it difficult to keep the momentum of chat whilst on this journey (have slight social anxiety - and hard to relate to parents). He waits for me and I feel bad that he does that - and when I leave I tend to be really tired and stressed usually with a bad tummy ache.
Secondly - I have to get my mother-in-law to look after my child. I worry that she doesn't really want to look after him (she adores him - I know - but I still worry)
Then, during counselling I get really stressed, feel sick and get very bad tummy aches. I have a good counsellor but she is only treating me for PA when really I have so much more going on. I keep alot of it tucked away from my family. I also have this terrible thought in my head that actaully she doesn't care about me - she just wants to get paid - it is her job...why would I feel that way - it kinda makes me close down a bit.
Basically I hate the whole process of going to CBT. It makes me very anxious, unwell and I have stopped going recently. If I understand the whole process of CBT, do you think I can do this on my own? Is it possible to cure (I use that term lightly) yourself. I am very strong minded.
Thank you for reading