candicemarie88
26-11-10, 02:09
Hello there :)
I'm new here and have literally just come accross this site whilst researching on google.
I'm Candice, I'm 22 and from the UK. I have sufered from anxiety for as long as I can remember, although my symptoms have significantly increased over the last six months..
I suffer from hypochondria and have a very frustrating case of health anxiety. If I so much as sneeze I'm reserching my symptoms on google.. then the next day visiting my GP to establish what's wrong with me and suggest all the symptoms I have come accross online/forums etc. However, I am never satisfied when the dr turns me away stating that all is fine and I appear healthy etc. I might be calm for a few days afterwards, but then I seek reassurance again because another pain occurs and it's basically a never ending circle.!!
I have experienced intense panic attacks because of my constant anxiety/fear and I also have social phobia.
I am a student and currently in my first year of uni, however, I have missed the majority of my lectures this semester due to my ongoing problems and am therefore miles behind with work and will most likely fail my modules this term... which is consequently adding to my stress!
Anyway, I have taken to consuming fairly large amounts of alcohol as a way of coping, but i realise that this is not a long-term cure, nor do i wish to continue drinking because the day(s) after the heavy drinking I feel much much worse and then my anxiety becomes even worse and harder to manage.
My most recent problem/worry started this evening... I'm forever checking my pulse and am vary aware of my heartbeat and how it is supposed to feel... and tonight i began my usual routine of checking it and i realised that it suddenly stopped, for 2 seconds and then began beating at a normal rythem... i thought maybe it was in my head and tried to forget about it, however, that's eaier said than done. So I have been checking it on and off all night and it keeps happening, it stops and a great sense of fear/doom washes over me, then my heart thuds and is back to normal. It only happens now and again, and i find it is when I am most aware of my heart beat and when I am anxious. I am so so scared of having a heart attack!! I'm young and shouldnt worry about such things, but i am aware that on rare occasions younger people have experienced a heart attack, therefore I am aware that I'm not 100% protected against that happening.
Sorry, Im rambling now and not speaking sense, but I am extremely scared and i worry about death and having a heart attack on a daily basis.
I still act and behave like a child, I am always asking my parents for reassurance, and they are somewhat lost with me. They try to calm me down, but the thought and image of dying is so ingrained in my mind i don't know how to overcome it :(
I'm so scared right now about my heart and worried it's going to stop all together and dont know what to do... ive been to my local a&e many times and it's always a very embarrasing situation because they can't find a problem, but i keep thinking 'but this time might be different, i might actually be dying'.
I was wodering if other people have ths problem and if this is anxiety? also are there any 24 hour help lines in the uk?
Thanks,
Candice x :)
I'm new here and have literally just come accross this site whilst researching on google.
I'm Candice, I'm 22 and from the UK. I have sufered from anxiety for as long as I can remember, although my symptoms have significantly increased over the last six months..
I suffer from hypochondria and have a very frustrating case of health anxiety. If I so much as sneeze I'm reserching my symptoms on google.. then the next day visiting my GP to establish what's wrong with me and suggest all the symptoms I have come accross online/forums etc. However, I am never satisfied when the dr turns me away stating that all is fine and I appear healthy etc. I might be calm for a few days afterwards, but then I seek reassurance again because another pain occurs and it's basically a never ending circle.!!
I have experienced intense panic attacks because of my constant anxiety/fear and I also have social phobia.
I am a student and currently in my first year of uni, however, I have missed the majority of my lectures this semester due to my ongoing problems and am therefore miles behind with work and will most likely fail my modules this term... which is consequently adding to my stress!
Anyway, I have taken to consuming fairly large amounts of alcohol as a way of coping, but i realise that this is not a long-term cure, nor do i wish to continue drinking because the day(s) after the heavy drinking I feel much much worse and then my anxiety becomes even worse and harder to manage.
My most recent problem/worry started this evening... I'm forever checking my pulse and am vary aware of my heartbeat and how it is supposed to feel... and tonight i began my usual routine of checking it and i realised that it suddenly stopped, for 2 seconds and then began beating at a normal rythem... i thought maybe it was in my head and tried to forget about it, however, that's eaier said than done. So I have been checking it on and off all night and it keeps happening, it stops and a great sense of fear/doom washes over me, then my heart thuds and is back to normal. It only happens now and again, and i find it is when I am most aware of my heart beat and when I am anxious. I am so so scared of having a heart attack!! I'm young and shouldnt worry about such things, but i am aware that on rare occasions younger people have experienced a heart attack, therefore I am aware that I'm not 100% protected against that happening.
Sorry, Im rambling now and not speaking sense, but I am extremely scared and i worry about death and having a heart attack on a daily basis.
I still act and behave like a child, I am always asking my parents for reassurance, and they are somewhat lost with me. They try to calm me down, but the thought and image of dying is so ingrained in my mind i don't know how to overcome it :(
I'm so scared right now about my heart and worried it's going to stop all together and dont know what to do... ive been to my local a&e many times and it's always a very embarrasing situation because they can't find a problem, but i keep thinking 'but this time might be different, i might actually be dying'.
I was wodering if other people have ths problem and if this is anxiety? also are there any 24 hour help lines in the uk?
Thanks,
Candice x :)