candicemarie88
29-11-10, 02:20
I've been experiencing very frightening sensations in my chest for 3 days now and they won't leave me alone. I'm scared to death, i don't know what to do, i seriously think i am going to die.
I have asthma, but i know it is not down to that because i have been taking my inhalers and my peak flow is normal.
I have been very anxious for the last 6 months and it's getting worse by the day. I am at university and have not made many friends, so i'm always alone, and feel that if i needed emergency help then i'd have no one to help me or call an ambulance out for me.
I drink a lot and have smoked a bit of weed as i stupidly thought this would help decrease my anxiety.. i mixed the two drugs on wednesday night and woke in a sudden state of panic and sweat. My heart pounded for over 30 mins and i really thought my time was up.
I came to my parents house on thursday since i thought it would help me to relax, however, i feel worse than ever and this is when my heart started to stop and miss beats. I ALWAYS check my pulse, have been since summer and have never noticed my heart stop. Though on thursday i was still worked up about the panic attack i had the previous night, so was chcecking my pulse constantly. Suddenly whilst watching tv, where i had my fingers pressed on either sides of my neck, the pulse stopped, and i felt instantly breathless and an overwhelming electric shock like feeling went through my entire body. Suddenly my heart thudded back to it's normal rhythem.
So i thought it was all in my head and went to have a relaxing bath... then sat down to write my assignment, however, i kept checking my pulse just to be sure and it happened again, three times in 5 minutes... normal rate, then suddenly STOP and i felt as if i was going to pass out.
Okay, so i went to the dr the next day and he didnt even check my heart rate or anything, he didnt seem very sympathetic at all and prescribed me diazepam and ecitralopram. i already feel the need to take the diazepam, and i know im going to become addicted, because i NEED to get rid of my anxiety. my life has lost its meaning and i feel as if i can't enjoy myself anymore... i'm young and no one else my age seems to be worrying about death... :(
Right, so my heart still appears to be stopping and i can't help but feel my pulse all the time, it's driving me insane, i also can't stop crying or researching symptoms online.
My heart feels as if its jumping and fluttering and it feels as if it is in my throat, i also have pain and in my arms, i feel so breathless and uncomortable and have been sitting with a hot water bottle accross my chest all day. plus the diazepam is not relieving my heart/chest symptoms, although i do feel somewhat more relaxed after taking it, but the effects dont seem to last very long.
my question is that if the diazepam is supposed to calm my anxiety, then why is my heart still reacting like this, even when im relaxed, because i can feel it stop and then i feel breathless. surely this is a symptom of something serious? i just feel that i need to be monitored 24/7 and in hospital where im constantly around health experts, because what if i ignore this and then its too late, i might die and im not ready to, i want to overcome this and become the person i once was all those years ago.
i suffer from health anxiety, social anxiety, general anxiety, depresonalisation, ocd and depression... i need my life sorted out once and for all, otherwise whats the point? i hate the person i have become and i have gradually got worse over the last 10 years. i still fell like a child who needs protecting and act like a child, im 22 and need to grow up, but i just dont know how, i feel as if im losing my mind and control of myself, and all these issues and stress surely might cause my body to just give up and this is what im worried about, that my heart is going to just pack in because it cant take a single moment more of this. please help me, i really need someone to look after me, what am i going to do? i feel like jumping off a cliff, i really need help, but no one understands me.
sorry, this is so long and most likely boring you, but i cant control myself, i want to be free from all of this, why cant i just enjoy my life, its a gift that im taking for granted. if i dont appreciate it then whats the point in my existance?
I have asthma, but i know it is not down to that because i have been taking my inhalers and my peak flow is normal.
I have been very anxious for the last 6 months and it's getting worse by the day. I am at university and have not made many friends, so i'm always alone, and feel that if i needed emergency help then i'd have no one to help me or call an ambulance out for me.
I drink a lot and have smoked a bit of weed as i stupidly thought this would help decrease my anxiety.. i mixed the two drugs on wednesday night and woke in a sudden state of panic and sweat. My heart pounded for over 30 mins and i really thought my time was up.
I came to my parents house on thursday since i thought it would help me to relax, however, i feel worse than ever and this is when my heart started to stop and miss beats. I ALWAYS check my pulse, have been since summer and have never noticed my heart stop. Though on thursday i was still worked up about the panic attack i had the previous night, so was chcecking my pulse constantly. Suddenly whilst watching tv, where i had my fingers pressed on either sides of my neck, the pulse stopped, and i felt instantly breathless and an overwhelming electric shock like feeling went through my entire body. Suddenly my heart thudded back to it's normal rhythem.
So i thought it was all in my head and went to have a relaxing bath... then sat down to write my assignment, however, i kept checking my pulse just to be sure and it happened again, three times in 5 minutes... normal rate, then suddenly STOP and i felt as if i was going to pass out.
Okay, so i went to the dr the next day and he didnt even check my heart rate or anything, he didnt seem very sympathetic at all and prescribed me diazepam and ecitralopram. i already feel the need to take the diazepam, and i know im going to become addicted, because i NEED to get rid of my anxiety. my life has lost its meaning and i feel as if i can't enjoy myself anymore... i'm young and no one else my age seems to be worrying about death... :(
Right, so my heart still appears to be stopping and i can't help but feel my pulse all the time, it's driving me insane, i also can't stop crying or researching symptoms online.
My heart feels as if its jumping and fluttering and it feels as if it is in my throat, i also have pain and in my arms, i feel so breathless and uncomortable and have been sitting with a hot water bottle accross my chest all day. plus the diazepam is not relieving my heart/chest symptoms, although i do feel somewhat more relaxed after taking it, but the effects dont seem to last very long.
my question is that if the diazepam is supposed to calm my anxiety, then why is my heart still reacting like this, even when im relaxed, because i can feel it stop and then i feel breathless. surely this is a symptom of something serious? i just feel that i need to be monitored 24/7 and in hospital where im constantly around health experts, because what if i ignore this and then its too late, i might die and im not ready to, i want to overcome this and become the person i once was all those years ago.
i suffer from health anxiety, social anxiety, general anxiety, depresonalisation, ocd and depression... i need my life sorted out once and for all, otherwise whats the point? i hate the person i have become and i have gradually got worse over the last 10 years. i still fell like a child who needs protecting and act like a child, im 22 and need to grow up, but i just dont know how, i feel as if im losing my mind and control of myself, and all these issues and stress surely might cause my body to just give up and this is what im worried about, that my heart is going to just pack in because it cant take a single moment more of this. please help me, i really need someone to look after me, what am i going to do? i feel like jumping off a cliff, i really need help, but no one understands me.
sorry, this is so long and most likely boring you, but i cant control myself, i want to be free from all of this, why cant i just enjoy my life, its a gift that im taking for granted. if i dont appreciate it then whats the point in my existance?