sop84
01-12-10, 15:18
Hey everyone, I'm new to this forum.
I've been taking Citalopram since Friday, i've experienced some side effects mostly nausea, loss of appetite and headaches.
My GP put me on these as i'm burnt out, and finding it hard to cope. For the past 10-15 years i've been carrying so much baggage and its hard to believe that the last time I completly felt fine was when I was 10, i'm 26 now.
The main problem in my life unfortuantly is my mum, from the age of 10 she has made me life and the life of my father, and siblings hell.
She was very unfortunate to lose her dad, my beloved grandpa 16 years ago and suddenly she swtiched to completly different person.
She was then ill with cancer and then diagnosed with a life altering disease.
As a family we supported her the best we cud do, loved her and looked after her. And we were repayed with emotional abuse.
Its hard to write this as your probably thinking poor woman, but you did live the 16 years of hell that I had to.
The constant bullying, guilt tripping, blackmail,threats, manipulation and worst of all the feeling that your nothing! Constant arguing, screaming and even throwing stuff at you.
She still does it today :weep: our relationship has rele taken a hit as I can't let go of all the horrible years and find it rele difficult to communicate with her.
I've always sympathesed for the hand she was dealt but she much better now cancer free, altho still struggling with the other medical condition she was given more time unlike some people and shes wasting it.
The impact of the 16 years has rele taken its toll on me as my main flaw is the constant need to please people and worry all the time :(
So much I just feel hopeless and completly worthless xxx
I've been taking Citalopram since Friday, i've experienced some side effects mostly nausea, loss of appetite and headaches.
My GP put me on these as i'm burnt out, and finding it hard to cope. For the past 10-15 years i've been carrying so much baggage and its hard to believe that the last time I completly felt fine was when I was 10, i'm 26 now.
The main problem in my life unfortuantly is my mum, from the age of 10 she has made me life and the life of my father, and siblings hell.
She was very unfortunate to lose her dad, my beloved grandpa 16 years ago and suddenly she swtiched to completly different person.
She was then ill with cancer and then diagnosed with a life altering disease.
As a family we supported her the best we cud do, loved her and looked after her. And we were repayed with emotional abuse.
Its hard to write this as your probably thinking poor woman, but you did live the 16 years of hell that I had to.
The constant bullying, guilt tripping, blackmail,threats, manipulation and worst of all the feeling that your nothing! Constant arguing, screaming and even throwing stuff at you.
She still does it today :weep: our relationship has rele taken a hit as I can't let go of all the horrible years and find it rele difficult to communicate with her.
I've always sympathesed for the hand she was dealt but she much better now cancer free, altho still struggling with the other medical condition she was given more time unlike some people and shes wasting it.
The impact of the 16 years has rele taken its toll on me as my main flaw is the constant need to please people and worry all the time :(
So much I just feel hopeless and completly worthless xxx