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[magicbullet86]

Hi folks, quite nervous about being here! Nervous becuase I'm worried that writing about my problems might make them worse!

I've had anxiety and OCD since I was 10. It died down after about 6 years but a tragic event last year brought them back with a venegance!

My main pre-occupation right now is that I will go absoloutely mad and lose all grip of reality. I'm worried that because I spend each day thinking like this my brain will just become completely corrupted and me a mad man. I'm worried I'll develop schizophrenia or some other sinister mental disorder and will never be able to recover.

It just seems like a downward spiral and I'm 'in too deep' as it were.

I feel so overwhelmed. I also have the dispersonalization / disrealization right now which isn't helping matters. My mind feels so foggy that it's difficult to think clearly... rationalize etc. Thoughts seems to be jumbled and unorganized... hard to rationalize the nonesense thoughts.

I'm also worried that I might start hallucinating during the day. I'm having trouble sleeping and always seem to reach the verge of sleep and stay there. It's at this stage that I start dreaming scenarios yet am still awake. I'm sure this is perfectly normal but it freaks the hell out of me. For example, the other day, whilst on the verge of sleep, I got it into my head that aliens were attacking me. I had a panic attack... thought I was going mad, but eventually relaxed and returned to normal.

However, I'm just worried that this will feed into my waking hours. I'm worried that If I keep reaching this weird 'verge of sleep' state of mind that I'll actually make it worse... encourage it. Hard to explain. :(

I'm also very gullible! I started reading a website that claimed that evil aliens were ruling the Earth. It conflicted with my belief systems.

I started to panic. It felt like I couldn't handle knowing this information, and merely knowing it would send me mad.

Please help me guys! Am I merely an anxiety sufferer who can and will get better? Or am I in too deep? Am I on a downward spiral mentally?

I'm so scared guys! I look at normal people and envy them so much.

Thanks for reading,

- Luke

[wendy]

Hi Luke

Welcome to the site, Everyone is great here and Im sure you will find the forum a great help!

Take Care

Wendy x

[nomorepanic]

Hi Luke

Welcome aboard. Lovely to see you here.

You are not going mad atall - you wouldn't even know it if you were and you would not be able to comprehend that you could so don't worry about that.

Here are some previous posts that may help you ...

Depersonalization
D/Personalisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2304)
derealisation/depersonlisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2512)
Hi new member mom w/ panic and dp/dr (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=1239)
Disassociation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2732)
when will this feeling leave? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=2971)
FEELING SPACED! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4079)
?Derealisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4682)
My mind and depersonalisation (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5345)
Derealization (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5523)
Surreal, Unreal, Spaced-Out, Derealization etc (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5569)
Weird Feelings in Mind (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5622)
Feel Weird and Confused (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5833)
Is this Depersonlization or something worse? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6009)
Anyone got any positive feedback on DP/DR? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6044)
PMT, tiredness, and feeling of unreality (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6670)
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Derealization (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7230)
Terrifying Depersonalization/Derealization (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7436)

weird thoughts
odd thoughts... (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5201)
Strange thoughts....Anyone else? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5294)
Silly thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5694)
strange things! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6461)
worried... (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7323)
scared and down! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7389)

Going mad fears
I'm new! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=3739)
http://www.nomorepanic.org.uk/lounge/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=1299
Madness (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5154)
mentally ill?! worries (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5335)
Its happening again ! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6094)
hearing voices (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7332)


Sorry there are so many but please read them as it will reassure you that you are not mad and anxiety can do so much to us.

Hope you get some great support on here.



Nicola

[clickaway]

Welcome Aboard Luke!

You've done the right thing by coming here and I'm sure it will help you recover.

You are not in too deep - you can get through this. What has the doc said?

Take Care,

Ray
http://www.anxietyrelease.org.uk/

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
~Mark Sanders and Tia Sillers

[magicbullet86]

Thanks for the welcome!

Very reassuring to know I'm not alone in this.

[magicbullet86]

Doc couldn't see any sinister mental problems. Was quite happy that I indeed have anxiety. Advised a pyschologist and a need to get out more lol.

[Alexandra]

Hi Luke

Welcome to the forum.

You will find lots of help & support on here.

Please do'nt be nervous.

Take Care

Alex

Many People Will Walk
In & Out Of Your Life
But Only True Friends
Will Leave Footprints
In Your Heart

[weepinky]

Hi there

I am new to the site also, don't worry that writing your worries down will make them worse as I am sure you will find the opposite, use it as somewhere to offload as it were!

I found it a great help.

Welcome to you

[trac67]

Hi Luke,

Welcome to the forum, you will get a lot of good advice here and make some new friends.

Take care

Trac xx

'Live your life with arms wide open, today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten'

[sal]

Hi Luke

Firstly welcome to the forum, you will get lots of support here.

I understand what you are saying and we do lose ourselves in this illness and irrational thoughts can take over, so it isnt hard for me to see where you are coming from.

Beliefs we always had suddenly are not as strong as they were before and we are left in a fragile state where anything can affect our thinking and we torure ourselves trying to make sense of it. Here for you like we all are.

Love Sal xx


Dont mess up the best things in your life, just because at present you are unsure who you are.


"Life is a distance and to travel that distance you were given the strength and guidance to do so".

[Lindalou64]

welcome..you find lots of information on this site believe me you are not going mad, its just very scary when you are going through it..ive been suffering for 17 yrs and i just try my hardest to stay positive and do it some times i can sometimes i cant do the things i want or think clearly....but this shall pass just keep reading it gives you hope and makes alot of sense it helped me the reading my best to you...Linda

[Two heads]

Hi luke,Glad you could join us! You really are not going mad,we all have those horrible days when we think we are, so dont feel you are alone because theres no chance of that on this forum.Take carexxx

[Paddington]

hi luke,noyou are not going mad!So many of us have these overbearing thoughts,it's decidin who's boss that is what i sruggle with too.We have the mental capacity to change our thought patterns and yet we allow the doubt,the fear the negative to rule!Hey we in the right place to change al that,welcome!love mary-rose.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

we are all in the same boat and can guide each other ashore

[magicbullet86]

Many thanks for the welcome!

Please take a look at a topic I have created. I would love some help with it please. [:I]

Sleeping Problems & DR / DP (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=8605)

[jackie]

hey luke. you will feel right at home here and there are many people who will help you. to talk about your problems will never amke it worse in the long run

jackie

[Spice]

Hi Luke

Welcome to NMP. Finding this site was one of the best things I ever did on the Internet.
Everyone is very supportive and will do all they can to put your mind at ease.... You are not alone.

Love
Spice

[sassy]

believe me, you are not alone. ive suffered horrifc thoughts and fears for over a year. ive found that i have the ability to talk myself into anything happening! a few years back i had a one off scenario..some madman (i forget his name lol) wrote down that the world would end on such and such a date. for 2 nights before that day i watched the sky and i waited. i took my kids to bed with me (so we could die together) and i was scared witless. obviously that day came and went, but i will never forget that fear. i have no idea as to what caused and it, nor how it went.
ive had the fear of choking..heartattacks and im now mildly convinced i have cancer. irrational maybe, but as you know..its real to us.
i am not 100% sure what causes such reactions..all i know is that in my case its stress and the ability to deal with life head on.
i can now only sleep with the radio on, so i can focus on something and avoid these thoughts.
im with you buddy..you need to compare notes..im here. your post has helped me greatly because all day ive been convinced that its just me.
em :)

[Meg]

Hello Luke

Welcome

Power of suggestion
Avoidance or sensible? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5513)
media (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5609)
illogical fear driving me mad! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6027)
Its happening again ! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6094)
Its happening again ! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6094)
Feeling lonely (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6820)
Mind fixed on something ughhh (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7024)




Meg
www.anxietymanagementltd.com

proactiveness, positivity, persistence, perseverance and practice = progress