In need of support

[Granny Primark]

The last 6 weeks have been hell.
Its a long story but basically its a poor excuse but I turned to drink to block away the hurt ive been feeling.
Big mistake!!!!!
For 3 days last week I was virtually unconsciece.
I woke up Thursday feeling so ill that I actually thought I was dying.
It was then I made a decision.
i rang the alcohol helpline.
The told me to ring the doctors. I rang them and they gave me a number to ring.
I rang the number and agreed to go for a meeting with my hubby the following day.
The lady couldnt have been nicer. I confessed everything. Drinking habits from years ago,which I know were normal. However there did seem to be a link with me finishing work because of panic attacks and my drinking increasing.
i.e. in able for me to go on holiday id sit in the back of the car with a can of lager to calm me down.
She asked me if I just wanted to cut down my drinking or cut it out altogether.
Ive decided I want to cut out that demon altogether.
Ive had the cpn round to see me on Thursday and been for a blood test yesterday.
Hopefully I start detox on the 13th. My hubbys got to have time off work to look after me.
Im not ashamed or embarrassed alc abuse is common and I have used it as my crutch. I was weak mentally cus of panic and anxiety and that is why my normal drinking turned into drinking more when I was anxious.
But il be honest ive never been so scared in all my life!!!!!
Im a woman on a mission now. Just want this detox over and to be woman I was.
Please dont think bad of me.
I need all the help and support I can get.

[mick_uk]

well done lynn:bighug1:
That's a brave and difficult first step to take. I'm sure you can do it.
take care

mick
xx

[JaneC]

Yep, admitting you have a problem and wanting to do something about it is a massive step. Wishing you good luck with the detox. People on NMP will he here for you if you need us :hugs:

[baileys]

Good luck with your mission Lynn X. Keep us updated.

[t0rt01se36]

You know where I am if you need me Lynn.

Hope the Detox helps !

[suzy-sue]

Well done Lynn ,Admitting you have a problem is he hardest thing to do .Its often understable how people turn to drink ,its so tempting when things are tough .It so readily available too . Good luck with you recovery ,Im sure you will feel so much better for it and be back to your old self soon .New year! New Lynn eh ? Take care of yourself and keep us updated .luv Sue x:hugs:

[Hazel B]

Well done and best wishes for your recovery. You've been really brave.:D

[Nigel]

Lynne, have another :hugs:

Admitting to a problem is a very brave thing to do. Sharing that with others takes even greater courage. I admire you for that.

Best of luck with your recovery. One thing I read ages ago was to aim to get through just today without a drink. Don’t think any further ahead – just today...

Take care :)
Nigel

[Anxious_gal]

once you are aware of your problem your already half way there to solving it :)

It must be scary but it will be sooo worth it in the end x
:hugs:

[Anxious_gal]

we'll all be here to support you x x

[HarrogateChris]

Good luck :hugs:

Chris

[shotokansho]

Hi honey.

Really sorry to hear you are having a rough time, but you made a big step by calling people and talking about it...very brave too. It's a massive thing, issues with alcohol are always hard/ I only know cos I am going through it myself. When I was taken to hospital last week I had drank 9 pints that day and over 5 days I had drank almost 50 pints! I've been off it a week now and I am feeling the benefit already, and so will you.
It's so easy to turn to drink cos we think it blocks things out, when in fact it doesn't, especially if you are on medication.
It's great you are getting support from the alcohol team and a cpn. I am too, and I have found them very helpful and supportive. No one will judge you or think bad of you, just that you are a wonderful and brave lady who just wants to get better.
Lots of huggles

Kez xx

[eternally optimistic]

Well done Lynne,

I wish you lots and lots of love and luck with your recent decision.

I am sure with the help of your counsellor, your husband and NMP, you will make it.

Onwards and upwards, Lynne. :hugs:

[pollyanna]

well done for seeking out help, life happens and we react in various ways, the main thing is that you are getting the support that you need.

best wishes,

P x

[Granny Primark]

I cant tell you what a relief it was to admit to my prob.
Everyone has been so understanding.
Im keeping a daily diary of how im feeling.
It will be good to look back on.
Granny Primark the wreck to Granny Primark who can laugh and smile again..
So glad I told my nmp friends.
Your support means the world to me.
Love ya loads.
:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

[gaaron]

Well done! We get to a point where we say enough is enough and you've found it! All the best and I'm sure you will get loads of support here. x

[Granny Primark]

1 more day to go til I find out if the detox can be done at home or in hospital. Tomorrow i find out for defo whats happening. Im so nervous that im waking up in the night with panic.
Why the hell ive let myself get in this state I dont know.
Ive got so many addictions.:)
In order:
1. My darling grandaughter katie
2. Alcohol
3.Cheese
4. Milk
5. X Factor
6. Iced coffee
Thank God ive still got a sense of humour:)

[debera]

well done lynn good luck
love debera :hugs::hugs:

[t0rt01se36]

Hope you find that inner strength to succeed granny primark.

I have every faith in you.

Do you have a midnight feast of cheese n milk?

[xBettyBoopx]

Dear Lynn:hugs:

No one here is judging you, we all I think have an addiction of one kind or another.

I wish you all the luck in the world:yesyes: I know you can do it.

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Your sense of humour will also pull you through.

We are rooting for ya.:hugs::hugs:

Love
Liz aka Els

[margaret jones]

Lynn thinking of you :hugs: be brave we are all here to support you I have missed our chats Take Care hope to speak soon lol from me to you xxx

[Granny Primark]

9.15 am monday the detox starts at home.
Thank God I realised I was dependent on alcohol for everytime I had a prob.
Ive got a lovely nurse who gave me a hug and told me I was being brave to admit id got a prob.
Im very scared but ive got do it.
How many people are in denial? At least now im doing something about it.
2 weeks from now God willing il be fine.


Watch this space!

[JaneC]

Wishing you lots of luck Lynn xxx

[margaret jones]

Lynn will be thinking of you on Mon and every day , be brave you can do it keep us posted how you are :hugs:xxxx

[missy007]

Lots of love Lynn and :bighug1:you will get there x

[Granny Primark]

Well its here at last!
So far so good. Ive got 9 days to go. The nurse said il be a different woman.
My hubby joked that he would love a different woman but one who was a bit younger.
Daft as it seems I feel proud that ive nipped it in the bud.
My rose wine that i so loved could have progressed to something stronger.
Ive been told il get on going support after the detox.
I cried to the nurse telling her i felt guilty for wasting tax payers money cus my prob is self inflicted.
When all this is done i really hope i can give something back and help others.

[diane07]

Lynn

What a brave woman you are.

Well done you on seeking this help and i wish you all the luck in the world.

di xx

[t0rt01se36]

How are you getting on Lynn?

Sending you positive thoughts and you are doing so well.

I am missing you Granny P.

Ju