crazyhayz
05-12-10, 13:48
Ive had direct experience of knowing how powerful our minds are, and of how much what we think affects us physically and gives us all these horrible symptoms.. Back in March I had severe dizziness to the point where i was literally bed-ridden, i could hardly walk, my vision was affected and it was sdo bad i never gotta break from it, only when i was asleep!
Then that month I went to A&E and they decided to bring me back in that following week for a brain CT scan. It was completely normal. After that, I went ages without any dizziness. It totally disappeared. It came back again once I started worrying about MS (i had been twitching and burning etc).
I realised that the dizziness was due to the fact that I was worrying sooo much that I had a brain tumour or a stroke.
Its happened again...
The last few weeks ive been having awful panic attacks, and really bad weakness and constantly stretching, prickling and tingling all over, numb patches etc etc... ive been convinced ive been suffering MS or MND.. Ive been having awful breathlessness, which has been constant all day everyday, the weakness has made me think i was dying where it was so bad...
Neway, I decided to join a forum where people who actually suffer from these sorts of things.. and see how i matched up... I now know from just reading what theyve said that I definitely do NOT have MS or MND..
I also have sat down a coupleof nights ago and gone over everything in my head...and soon after that I felt so much better and my symptoms pretty much disappeared..
I've also reminded myself how many different worries ive had, and how many different tests ive had!! So im guna quickly note down all of the tests ive had, the reasons why i had them (the symptoms), and the result afterwards...
* Brain CT scan - due to constant dizziness and head pain/pressure/blurred vision and clouded left eye. NORMAL.
* Echocardiogram (heart scan) - due to palps with dizziness/central chest pain. NORMAL.
* Countless ECG's - same as above. ALL NORMAL.
* Pelvic ultrasound - due to lumps in groin, ultrasound showed swollen nodes. (These still havent gone and ive pretty much been telling myself ive got cancer, but i know that if it was then the lumps would have got bigger, which they havent, and theyve been there for 10 weeks) Blood test for lymphoma - NORMAL.
* Countless blood tests - NORMAL.
* Chest Xrays - NORMAL.
* ENT appt. NORMAL.
This should show people that its the constant worrying that gives us these symptoms. Whenever i convince myself im not ill, I get better.
Im phoning up my CBT counsellor tomorrow as I realise that I am not ill with a serious illness, and its just the severe effects of long-term adrenalin through my body. If u read up on long term adrenalin/stress, u dont realise how mujch it affects ur body.
I hope to god ive started turning a corner now.However im nt guna build my hopes up like i did in June.. im taking it one day at a time xxxx ps. got neuro on 1st feb, does everyone still think i shud go? i spose i need that reasurance even if i dont think ive got MS or MND or anything... :shrug:
Then that month I went to A&E and they decided to bring me back in that following week for a brain CT scan. It was completely normal. After that, I went ages without any dizziness. It totally disappeared. It came back again once I started worrying about MS (i had been twitching and burning etc).
I realised that the dizziness was due to the fact that I was worrying sooo much that I had a brain tumour or a stroke.
Its happened again...
The last few weeks ive been having awful panic attacks, and really bad weakness and constantly stretching, prickling and tingling all over, numb patches etc etc... ive been convinced ive been suffering MS or MND.. Ive been having awful breathlessness, which has been constant all day everyday, the weakness has made me think i was dying where it was so bad...
Neway, I decided to join a forum where people who actually suffer from these sorts of things.. and see how i matched up... I now know from just reading what theyve said that I definitely do NOT have MS or MND..
I also have sat down a coupleof nights ago and gone over everything in my head...and soon after that I felt so much better and my symptoms pretty much disappeared..
I've also reminded myself how many different worries ive had, and how many different tests ive had!! So im guna quickly note down all of the tests ive had, the reasons why i had them (the symptoms), and the result afterwards...
* Brain CT scan - due to constant dizziness and head pain/pressure/blurred vision and clouded left eye. NORMAL.
* Echocardiogram (heart scan) - due to palps with dizziness/central chest pain. NORMAL.
* Countless ECG's - same as above. ALL NORMAL.
* Pelvic ultrasound - due to lumps in groin, ultrasound showed swollen nodes. (These still havent gone and ive pretty much been telling myself ive got cancer, but i know that if it was then the lumps would have got bigger, which they havent, and theyve been there for 10 weeks) Blood test for lymphoma - NORMAL.
* Countless blood tests - NORMAL.
* Chest Xrays - NORMAL.
* ENT appt. NORMAL.
This should show people that its the constant worrying that gives us these symptoms. Whenever i convince myself im not ill, I get better.
Im phoning up my CBT counsellor tomorrow as I realise that I am not ill with a serious illness, and its just the severe effects of long-term adrenalin through my body. If u read up on long term adrenalin/stress, u dont realise how mujch it affects ur body.
I hope to god ive started turning a corner now.However im nt guna build my hopes up like i did in June.. im taking it one day at a time xxxx ps. got neuro on 1st feb, does everyone still think i shud go? i spose i need that reasurance even if i dont think ive got MS or MND or anything... :shrug: