harpboy
08-12-10, 07:03
So... I'm alex, I'm a fairly average 19 year old guy. I'm a harpist in my second year at music college.
Panic has been controlling my life on and off since I was 15. It started when I went on a volunteering trip to Kenya. On the trip I started getting very regular panic attacks.
On my return home, I was tested for various diseases including Malaria because no-one new what was wrong with me. Eventually I got diagnosed with Chronic Hyperventilation Disorder - panic attacks.
The first couple of years it affected me really badly. I found it very hard to eat and had to be forced to stay at the table. I didn't sleep through the night much. I found it hard to go to school, used to have to leave classes, and fainted sometimes.
I found good coping mechanisms which helped alot but now panic is seriously back. I had such a bad panic attack in college on Thursday that someone called an ambulance. Since then I havenot left the house. I am unable to eat properly, have lost a stone, can't really get out of bed. Basically, my whole life is shot, and I don't know how to kick myself out of it.
But I really really want to and I'm willing to try so hard...
Panic has been controlling my life on and off since I was 15. It started when I went on a volunteering trip to Kenya. On the trip I started getting very regular panic attacks.
On my return home, I was tested for various diseases including Malaria because no-one new what was wrong with me. Eventually I got diagnosed with Chronic Hyperventilation Disorder - panic attacks.
The first couple of years it affected me really badly. I found it very hard to eat and had to be forced to stay at the table. I didn't sleep through the night much. I found it hard to go to school, used to have to leave classes, and fainted sometimes.
I found good coping mechanisms which helped alot but now panic is seriously back. I had such a bad panic attack in college on Thursday that someone called an ambulance. Since then I havenot left the house. I am unable to eat properly, have lost a stone, can't really get out of bed. Basically, my whole life is shot, and I don't know how to kick myself out of it.
But I really really want to and I'm willing to try so hard...