Miss B
09-12-10, 05:25
Lived with panic for about 9 years. Night time is the worst time for me. I go to sleep scared every night that I am having a heart attack. I get a heavy feeling in my chest along with indigestions. I have had lots of test and all come back fine. I am 43 and a smoker. I want to quit smoking because I think it would stop many of the things I worry about. I do believe in God, but my mind will start obsessing about things such as, what if I don't go to heaven or what if none of what I believe is true. What if we have all been taught about God, but there isn't a God. Crazy, crazy. My mind is a world of what if's. I constantly wonder if this will be the day I check out of this world. I feel as though I am losing my mind most nights. I am busy with work during the day and do not have much time to ruminate over these crazy obsessive thoughts. Am I crazy?