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Hello all
Hope you are all well! I just wanted to post on here, as i have been on citalopram now for 8 weeks i was doing so well, but monday bangits really hit me again, im waking in the mornings with the dread feeling, crying al the time, so anxious and panicky i just dont know what to do... i have got to go to the doctors later on today, just dont know what to do.... im currently on 30mg and have been taking that strength for 4 weeks now... cant believe this is happening to me... i feel terrible like i cant cope with it anymore!
Hello all
Hope you are all well! I just wanted to post on here, as i have been on citalopram now for 8 weeks i was doing so well, but monday bangits really hit me again, im waking in the mornings with the dread feeling, crying al the time, so anxious and panicky i just dont know what to do... i have got to go to the doctors later on today, just dont know what to do.... im currently on 30mg and have been taking that strength for 4 weeks now... cant believe this is happening to me... i feel terrible like i cant cope with it anymore!
Hi there, sorry to hear you are feeling bad. :hugs: I am on week 5, on 20mg. Its been good and not so good but the lovely people on here told me it can take up to 8 weeks minimum to settle, so don't be hard on yourself that its not quite working yet. You will get blips, we won't feel good every day but obviously you can't cope with how you are feeling on a long term basis so glad you are seeing your gp later, I am sure they will decide what to do for the best. Keep us posted. xx
It took me around 10 weeks for me to settle on it then I was ok. 30mg is a very low dose. My Dr had me on 60mg by week 10. I would find out about say taking it upto 40mg a day and seeing if the Dr will add say 6mg of Diazepam a day for 14 days. 2mg in the morning, then the same at lunch and dinner making a total of 6mg per day. This can help reduce a number of unwanted effects and give you a 2 week break if you like as you will feel pretty much care free!
At this dose over 14 days you will not become addicted so dont worry about that!
For the time being :hugs:
Paul.
Thanks for your replies and support... i will see what the doctor says and keep you all posted.... i have to be careful godzilla as i have two young children to look after under the age of 3 years so i need to be ok
Jen I really feel for you - I'm in a similar situation. Coming up to wk 7 on 20mg, felt just like my old self and well on the road to recovery. In a matter of hours on Friday I'd slipped into a terrible state of anxiety which built and built over the w/e. Had my dose increased to 40mg on Monday and some beta blockers added to alleviate effects of increase. Still struggling but am definitely marginally better than the weekend. We will get back to normal - afterall, we were feeling better so the Cit. - alongside our own efforts - must be doing something.
Seeing the gp made me feel so much more optimistic - I hope it does the same for you. Let us know.
Just saw your new comment - ditto 2 small children - is your anxiety a post-natal thing - apparently mine is 'neglected PND'!
not sure hun.... i did have postnatal depression after my first child was born but got over it.... could be the return of it.... just feel terrible its horrible like living a nightmare.... glad you're feeling slightly better xxx
Interesting saying about children. My anxiety started after my daughter was born. I don't know why as she was planned and I always wanted a baby girl so I got everything I wished for.......Still cant understand!!
Best of luck at Dr's Jen :)
This is my first experience of depression and anxiety - but I really let it go on too long before I got it treated. My 2nd is 13 months - the whole of 2010 I have worried incessantly about my health, seen 3 different specialists, had CAT scans, MRIs, blood tests, you name it - they've always come back absolutely clear. In October I finally realised all my problems stemmed from anxiety - actually it was then I really hit my lowest - and I started Cit.
My GP said draw strength from fact that you did start to feel better - you can achieve that state again. This is a blip, and maybe an opportunity to review your medication. Maybe the first blip is the hardest because it comes just as you thought there was no looking back. No recovery is a straight line. That said, when I'm in the grip of it, I find it hard to take this advice. It's a bloody awful illness xx
Hi Jen,
I am on my 7th week of Citalopram and feel like I am getting worse at times. I had a really good week last week and thought I was getting there. This week I have been thrown into a dreadful state again, I am worried about a family party we are hosting on Saturday - I just can't face it. My husband seems to think that if I back out of it I will feel a lot worse. But the thought of talking to a load of relatives who don't know about my anxiety problem and think I am a level-headed and sensible person just scare me 1/2 to death.
I didn't sleep last night and have been having 'awful' thoughts about ending this suffering and wishing the breast cancer i had 6 years ago would come back and finish me off.
This makes me feel so guilty, I really couldn't do that to my husband and my girls! But I feel worthless, a few months ago I was at work, doing a course, making presentations and travelling around the county without the least anxiety - I feel like I have ruined my life and its all my fault.
I am only on 20mg of Citalopram - perhaps I need 30mgs??? Maybe some Diazepam would help but this frightens me as I dont want to become a zombie (I have had it as a premed and it really made me drowsy)
Is there anyone out there who can may me see the light at the end of the tunnel???
This is the only place I can find people who really understand what I am going through... sorry to ramble on but talking/typing helps!
Sharon:weep:
Sharon - you've beaten cancer you can certainly beat this! Re. party, I had exactly the same situation last Sunday - I was losing the plot as the cars pulled up to the house but I some how pulled it together and I actually had a really nice afternoon and felt so good about myself afterwards. During this blip, every time I've forced myself to do something it's improved my mood. And consider telling people about what you're going through. It's incredibly common, and you might get some real understanding and advice. We're all going to get through this.
hello guys
Just came back from the doctors, my doctor wasn't in today so i seen a locum, which put me straight into panic mode. Anyway told her exactly how i have been feeling, this week and going back to work etc, she has advised me to take the 40mg now and in the mornings and evening take a diazepam to help me relax. She has also signed me off work again and i am due back in 2 weeks time.
I am going to do what she says and fingers crossed i will feel tonns better and get back into my daily life again.
xxx
Well done Jen, that all sounds incredibly positive. Good luck with the new medication x
That is good to hear, glad you have a positive plan in action. xx
hello guys
Just came back from the doctors, my doctor wasn't in today so i seen a locum, which put me straight into panic mode. Anyway told her exactly how i have been feeling, this week and going back to work etc, she has advised me to take the 40mg now and in the mornings and evening take a diazepam to help me relax. She has also signed me off work again and i am due back in 2 weeks time.
I am going to do what she says and fingers crossed i will feel tonns better and get back into my daily life again.
xxx
Good news Jen :)
You will feel the difference from 30mg to 40mg in 5-7 days. 40mg is a good dose for Citalopram. The people I have spoken to in the past say that is the dose that helped them.
Hi Jen,
I am on my 7th week of Citalopram and feel like I am getting worse at times. I had a really good week last week and thought I was getting there. This week I have been thrown into a dreadful state again, I am worried about a family party we are hosting on Saturday - I just can't face it. My husband seems to think that if I back out of it I will feel a lot worse. But the thought of talking to a load of relatives who don't know about my anxiety problem and think I am a level-headed and sensible person just scare me 1/2 to death.
I didn't sleep last night and have been having 'awful' thoughts about ending this suffering and wishing the breast cancer i had 6 years ago would come back and finish me off.
This makes me feel so guilty, I really couldn't do that to my husband and my girls! But I feel worthless, a few months ago I was at work, doing a course, making presentations and travelling around the county without the least anxiety - I feel like I have ruined my life and its all my fault.
I am only on 20mg of Citalopram - perhaps I need 30mgs??? Maybe some Diazepam would help but this frightens me as I dont want to become a zombie (I have had it as a premed and it really made me drowsy)
Is there anyone out there who can may me see the light at the end of the tunnel???
This is the only place I can find people who really understand what I am going through... sorry to ramble on but talking/typing helps!
Sharon:weep:
Hi Sharon
Firstly hun.......Dont hide your anxiety. If your friends cant take that then they are not true friends. Say to them 'I really dont know what has come over me but the past few months I have been feeling anxious' Its upto you if you want to tell them you have been to the Dr's and given medication. Tell them in a casual way, say after them being there 20 minutes or so. You will be amazed at the response, it will be something like 'Oh I had that years ago' or 'Mrs Jones who works in the office has been signed off with that' This will instantly make you feel better. If anyone comes out with a remark like 'Oh just get over it' reply with this 'If I could......I would as I really do not like feeling this way'
As for medication Citalopram @ 20mg per day is very low. If I was a Dr I would take you to 40mg and prescribe you Diazepam @ 4mg per day or Clonezepam @ 1mg per day. You say you had Diazepam as a pre-med before, do you know what doseage, if not what colour was the tablet, also was if deffo' Diazepam as Tamazepam is used an awful lot as a pre-med due to its sedative effect.
There is light at the end of the tunnel hun........It may be dark and horrible in the tunnel at the moment but keep going, keep busy, eat well, keep active (excellent if you have a dog!) drink plenty of water. Keep clear of coffee, tea, chocolate or any kind of stimulant as this will make your nerves worse. Also try not to drink alcohol. You can Email me daily if it helps, just to let everything off your chest. Before you know if the light will be in the distance and you will be walking a lot faster towards it than you thought. Keep that postitive mind 'I can do it, I can beat it' If needbe make it your friend because at the end of the day it wants you to feel yuk, so if yu want to be its friend you will find it will loose interest!
If only I took onbard my own advice!!
Paul.
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