candicemarie88
11-12-10, 18:00
haven't posted for a couple weeks because i was feeling better.
over the last 2 days i have been experiencing these sudden rushes of fear in my chest/stomach/throat which make me feel as if my heart has stopped beating and i feel sick and short of breath. this first happened on the train and after the first one i felt like i was going to die and couldnt breath... i had to get off at the next stop and try to calm down and had to wait nearly an hour for the next train! then it happened again, i was going to visit my nhs walk in centre when i arrived at my destination, but i couldnt because i felt too embarrassed and knew they would tell me off for being over the top and anxious. Every time i have symptoms and go to the dr i feel as if im wasting their time since thats the impression they give.
i've tried to calm down, and am still taking diazepam, but it doesnt really help me. i was on escitalopram, but that made me feel so much worse, so stopped that. i'm going to my dr on monday, but i dont know if i can survive over the weekend, because i keep having extreme rushes of fear :(
at uni and been under sooooo much stress this week, missed the deadline for an important essay and feel awful. keep having indegestion too, and feel the need to burp all the time.
i cant live like this, how will i ever manage to achieve my degree when im always feeling ill and cant concentrate on my work :(
i really think im going to die, because i forgot all about my heart the last 2 dweeks and was concentrating on my assignment. this suddenly started when on the train when i actually felt okay and not worried!! so i dont get it... i thought this was down to anxiety, but ive been calm recently. since this has started again i now feel really anxious, but strangely, my heart doesnt race, it remains slow, really slow, but how can this be? i feel i need it to race to prove that im having a panic attack, bacause i am panicking, just my heart doesnt race... so odd.... im scared it's going to become weaker and weaker and then stop!!!!!
has this happened to anyone else?????? my heart usually always races, but wont anymore!!!!!! and i havent had diazepam every day.
:( hate this soooo much!!!
over the last 2 days i have been experiencing these sudden rushes of fear in my chest/stomach/throat which make me feel as if my heart has stopped beating and i feel sick and short of breath. this first happened on the train and after the first one i felt like i was going to die and couldnt breath... i had to get off at the next stop and try to calm down and had to wait nearly an hour for the next train! then it happened again, i was going to visit my nhs walk in centre when i arrived at my destination, but i couldnt because i felt too embarrassed and knew they would tell me off for being over the top and anxious. Every time i have symptoms and go to the dr i feel as if im wasting their time since thats the impression they give.
i've tried to calm down, and am still taking diazepam, but it doesnt really help me. i was on escitalopram, but that made me feel so much worse, so stopped that. i'm going to my dr on monday, but i dont know if i can survive over the weekend, because i keep having extreme rushes of fear :(
at uni and been under sooooo much stress this week, missed the deadline for an important essay and feel awful. keep having indegestion too, and feel the need to burp all the time.
i cant live like this, how will i ever manage to achieve my degree when im always feeling ill and cant concentrate on my work :(
i really think im going to die, because i forgot all about my heart the last 2 dweeks and was concentrating on my assignment. this suddenly started when on the train when i actually felt okay and not worried!! so i dont get it... i thought this was down to anxiety, but ive been calm recently. since this has started again i now feel really anxious, but strangely, my heart doesnt race, it remains slow, really slow, but how can this be? i feel i need it to race to prove that im having a panic attack, bacause i am panicking, just my heart doesnt race... so odd.... im scared it's going to become weaker and weaker and then stop!!!!!
has this happened to anyone else?????? my heart usually always races, but wont anymore!!!!!! and i havent had diazepam every day.
:( hate this soooo much!!!