eternally optimistic
12-12-10, 17:28
God, where do I start.
The last 2/3 weeks I have been getting more and more uptight about handling life.
Both at home and at work, work is usually somewhere I manage to keep it all together but I know I'm not.
I feel like a M A S S I V E fall is around the corner. Thankfully, I managed to find some citalopram, 20mg, in the cupboard so have started back on them today.....
I feel so very very ridiculous not being able to cope and I cant.
I'm not having panic attacks, yet, all over the place, dont suppose I ever have in that sense, but I am physically broken, I just want to sleep and switch off from the whole bloody world.
Everything is hard, working, running a home, making sure everyone at home is alright!!! I just dont want the responsibility of everyone else, it makes me exhausted.
I had to take to my bed earlier because I just felt so unable to go on.
I had this symptom before I went on citalopram for many many years, probably in excess of 10, but thought it was just tiredness.
I would like nothing more than to go to bed and stay there.....
I suppose if I am honest, I am terrified I am losing the plot and that I will have to show my true colours at not coping...
The last 2/3 weeks I have been getting more and more uptight about handling life.
Both at home and at work, work is usually somewhere I manage to keep it all together but I know I'm not.
I feel like a M A S S I V E fall is around the corner. Thankfully, I managed to find some citalopram, 20mg, in the cupboard so have started back on them today.....
I feel so very very ridiculous not being able to cope and I cant.
I'm not having panic attacks, yet, all over the place, dont suppose I ever have in that sense, but I am physically broken, I just want to sleep and switch off from the whole bloody world.
Everything is hard, working, running a home, making sure everyone at home is alright!!! I just dont want the responsibility of everyone else, it makes me exhausted.
I had to take to my bed earlier because I just felt so unable to go on.
I had this symptom before I went on citalopram for many many years, probably in excess of 10, but thought it was just tiredness.
I would like nothing more than to go to bed and stay there.....
I suppose if I am honest, I am terrified I am losing the plot and that I will have to show my true colours at not coping...