Jamie C
13-12-10, 06:28
Hey guys (and girls)
My first post on here be kind (this might be wrong section but its a bit of everything so i'll dump it here):)
Right anyway, past few weeks i have noticed my anxiety take a turn for the worse, i've had it for a few years and its been under control in the sence that the only effect i've had from it was the sence of derealisation and the odd chest pain but anyway couple of weeks ago i noticed the pains in my chest getting worse and as you could imagen i was pretty concerned by it, making things worse, i then got a viral infection in my glands and sinus's anyway, i done the worst think ever, i consulted the big "G" on the amazing invention called the internet at 4am one morning, and i litteral freaked out at the results of doom (i'm sposed to be a tough guy?! well sort of ha) anyway i saw a Dr (not my normal one tho) and she comfirmed it was a viral infection, anyway later that day i noticed a lump in the back of my throat, and after another visit with Dr "G" i was mentally broken again, altho some good came of it, i found this forum and reading some of the threads it feels comforting to not be alone in this problem, however... i then find myself getting a tight throat, and i break out Dr "G" for a third time that week and yes more shock and horror, after digging a little deeper into this forum i decided the best thing for me was to stop searching "G" and i haven't searched it in 4 days, noticed a big change in my behavoir, its been alot more positive.
But i still get all these aches, pains, bad thoughts and thinking i'm dying etc, and i want it to stop cos i'm at the end of my rag with it all (and i want a full decent live with no worries) is this really normal for an 18 year old? I mean the recent goings on within my family (including a terminally ill Nan with the dreaded C :weep:) and the unemployment (jobless scum!) i guess have taken its toll but i thought i could deal with it.
I just want it to stop, when i feel like this with all the pains etc , i loose all motivation etc, i dont go out and my mind makes me think everyone hates me or is taking piss out of me (i am overweight) and i can't shift that weight off cos i have no get up and go, i feel tired all the time and i'm short on breath (and i've never had that before even with the all the "lard" lol) only time i go out is to sign on and to go Banger racing (my intrest for the weekends:D) and i used to be estatic about it, now recently the anxiety seems to just put me off of going cos that where my mates are and they think i'm just a miserable boring old bum (and i only have a few of them and they live miles away so racing is the time when we can meet up) i want to live a good life, a normal life, but i just can't seem to get myself away from the nasty thoughts and inpending doom that goes on in my head, i simply worry to much and things keep getting worse, i dont want to be miserable over Xmas cos its most likely the last Xmas my Nan is going to get so i want it to be a good one for her.
Of course the inpending doom thoughts haven't been helped one bit by the Googling i have done in the past, but now thats stopped i hope it gets better, but i aint so sure. I only have a few goals in life, and one of the big ones is to race a banger for myself, but i don't feel i could do that at the moment, and the chest pains worry me too when regarding racing myself.
So any advice, tips, stories, rants, essays and pointers that could help me escape the pains and doom? And anyone else in a similar state as me? Be nice hearing from people the same as me.
Cheers Jamie C!
P.S: it also feels better to get that out of my head aswell to stop it driving me mad, cos i haven't really told anyone!
P.P.S: Woah!!! Mega essay lol! :yahoo:
My first post on here be kind (this might be wrong section but its a bit of everything so i'll dump it here):)
Right anyway, past few weeks i have noticed my anxiety take a turn for the worse, i've had it for a few years and its been under control in the sence that the only effect i've had from it was the sence of derealisation and the odd chest pain but anyway couple of weeks ago i noticed the pains in my chest getting worse and as you could imagen i was pretty concerned by it, making things worse, i then got a viral infection in my glands and sinus's anyway, i done the worst think ever, i consulted the big "G" on the amazing invention called the internet at 4am one morning, and i litteral freaked out at the results of doom (i'm sposed to be a tough guy?! well sort of ha) anyway i saw a Dr (not my normal one tho) and she comfirmed it was a viral infection, anyway later that day i noticed a lump in the back of my throat, and after another visit with Dr "G" i was mentally broken again, altho some good came of it, i found this forum and reading some of the threads it feels comforting to not be alone in this problem, however... i then find myself getting a tight throat, and i break out Dr "G" for a third time that week and yes more shock and horror, after digging a little deeper into this forum i decided the best thing for me was to stop searching "G" and i haven't searched it in 4 days, noticed a big change in my behavoir, its been alot more positive.
But i still get all these aches, pains, bad thoughts and thinking i'm dying etc, and i want it to stop cos i'm at the end of my rag with it all (and i want a full decent live with no worries) is this really normal for an 18 year old? I mean the recent goings on within my family (including a terminally ill Nan with the dreaded C :weep:) and the unemployment (jobless scum!) i guess have taken its toll but i thought i could deal with it.
I just want it to stop, when i feel like this with all the pains etc , i loose all motivation etc, i dont go out and my mind makes me think everyone hates me or is taking piss out of me (i am overweight) and i can't shift that weight off cos i have no get up and go, i feel tired all the time and i'm short on breath (and i've never had that before even with the all the "lard" lol) only time i go out is to sign on and to go Banger racing (my intrest for the weekends:D) and i used to be estatic about it, now recently the anxiety seems to just put me off of going cos that where my mates are and they think i'm just a miserable boring old bum (and i only have a few of them and they live miles away so racing is the time when we can meet up) i want to live a good life, a normal life, but i just can't seem to get myself away from the nasty thoughts and inpending doom that goes on in my head, i simply worry to much and things keep getting worse, i dont want to be miserable over Xmas cos its most likely the last Xmas my Nan is going to get so i want it to be a good one for her.
Of course the inpending doom thoughts haven't been helped one bit by the Googling i have done in the past, but now thats stopped i hope it gets better, but i aint so sure. I only have a few goals in life, and one of the big ones is to race a banger for myself, but i don't feel i could do that at the moment, and the chest pains worry me too when regarding racing myself.
So any advice, tips, stories, rants, essays and pointers that could help me escape the pains and doom? And anyone else in a similar state as me? Be nice hearing from people the same as me.
Cheers Jamie C!
P.S: it also feels better to get that out of my head aswell to stop it driving me mad, cos i haven't really told anyone!
P.P.S: Woah!!! Mega essay lol! :yahoo: