nutteetart
13-12-10, 23:23
Really low.
After suffering with panic disorder and now chronic agoraphobia for 10 years, i have been seeing a psych and his cbt therapist wife privately (Skint), for a year.
The shrink put me on Pregabalin which worked well at first but i keep taking two steps forward then travel 3 back again. The shrink has now said that he cant help me any further and that he feels that if i could afford it, he would prefer to admit me to the clinic. At £600 a day, its obviously not an option and im not sure i could do it anyway. How would i even get there?
I just feel that i am never going to live again. Never going to look forward to a holiday or a night out with the girls. Never going to see my son play footy or enjoy the things i used to. I cant even have people visit me easily. My friend came round earlier and she ended up leaving because she could see me struggling.
Feels like there is nothing left. I cant opt out and i cant opt in. I am stuck. Cant do this alone and i am unconvinced i can do it AGAIN.
After suffering with panic disorder and now chronic agoraphobia for 10 years, i have been seeing a psych and his cbt therapist wife privately (Skint), for a year.
The shrink put me on Pregabalin which worked well at first but i keep taking two steps forward then travel 3 back again. The shrink has now said that he cant help me any further and that he feels that if i could afford it, he would prefer to admit me to the clinic. At £600 a day, its obviously not an option and im not sure i could do it anyway. How would i even get there?
I just feel that i am never going to live again. Never going to look forward to a holiday or a night out with the girls. Never going to see my son play footy or enjoy the things i used to. I cant even have people visit me easily. My friend came round earlier and she ended up leaving because she could see me struggling.
Feels like there is nothing left. I cant opt out and i cant opt in. I am stuck. Cant do this alone and i am unconvinced i can do it AGAIN.