bmccartney
15-12-10, 00:51
so, here goes an attempt to describe a very odd thing that i have noticed recently. I suffer from anxiety since july to the point i have made 2 trips to emergency department and have thought about "what is wrong with me 24 hours a day" . everything has changed in my life because of this and i struggle like so many people on this forum. okay.. so I obviously have anxiety when worry or am stressed or when apparrently nothing is wrong... just constant anxiety. Last week i was puttering around with christmas stuff and was actually feeling pretty darn good. The doorbell rang and i had a delivery of a gorgeous chrstmas plant. Lovely! Next thing I know I have a surge of adrenaline thru stomach and anxiety for the rest of the day!!!! And this started as a reaction to something nice! It happened again today... got excited to see a very dear friend and went from low anxiety to high constant anxiety for the rest of the day! Makes no sense to me at all! I thought anxiety was a result of negative thinking , worry etc..... what the hec is this??? Maybe I am not supposed to feel "anything" good or bad.. if i want to remain anxiety free! Of course that is not possible. Anyone have a comment ... confused.