candicemarie88
17-12-10, 23:58
i was reading up on heart failure, and saw that consuming large amounts of alcohol can cause this. since being at uni in september i was drinking at lot, sometimes 5 nights a week... this was a way of trying to cope and try to adjust to my new surroundings and the people i live with. i suffer from social anxiety, so moving away to study was a HUGE step for me.
anyway, my heart has been playing up for about a month now, but since then i've reduced my consumption of alcohol. but what if i have heart failure, how would i know? what is the alcohol and the weed i smoked has damaged it in some way, because ever since smoking one night and waking up with a rapid heartbeat i've been constantly worrying and this is when these pauses in my heartbeat started to occur. its still happening and i also now have developed pain in my cheat and arms, back, neck, jaw and feel an awful crushing pain in the centre of my chest and as if im being strangled and sat on.
i had an ecg in august after calling out paramedics and i had a blood test in the same month, all fine and told i was healthy... but what if something else has developed since then????? this thought is ingrained in my mind and i can't remove it no matter what... i've posted loads about this, but i still can't handle it :(
i cant cope, no matter what i do i cant focus. im not overweight, im actually only 7 stone.... im 5ft2 and was 9 stone in october, but have lost 2 stone because i cant eat. i feel as if im dying, i cant go on like this, im 22, but feel older because of this stress. what can i do to calm down... i went out today but felt worse... went for a short walk and to the shop, but i felt as if i was about to collapse and had to come home. i feel so, so weak and fragile... i dont know what to do. my indigestion is really bad also.
what can i do?????????? i want to have a nice christmas, this time last year i was happy, although still anxious over certain things, but it wasn't chronic. now im a mess and i look awful, i cant even be bothered to wash my hair or wear make up anymore, becuase i feel so low, whats the point in trying to look nice when feeling like crap?
sorry about being a total mess and posting all the time, i just cant cope and really do think that im going to die. :(
anyway, my heart has been playing up for about a month now, but since then i've reduced my consumption of alcohol. but what if i have heart failure, how would i know? what is the alcohol and the weed i smoked has damaged it in some way, because ever since smoking one night and waking up with a rapid heartbeat i've been constantly worrying and this is when these pauses in my heartbeat started to occur. its still happening and i also now have developed pain in my cheat and arms, back, neck, jaw and feel an awful crushing pain in the centre of my chest and as if im being strangled and sat on.
i had an ecg in august after calling out paramedics and i had a blood test in the same month, all fine and told i was healthy... but what if something else has developed since then????? this thought is ingrained in my mind and i can't remove it no matter what... i've posted loads about this, but i still can't handle it :(
i cant cope, no matter what i do i cant focus. im not overweight, im actually only 7 stone.... im 5ft2 and was 9 stone in october, but have lost 2 stone because i cant eat. i feel as if im dying, i cant go on like this, im 22, but feel older because of this stress. what can i do to calm down... i went out today but felt worse... went for a short walk and to the shop, but i felt as if i was about to collapse and had to come home. i feel so, so weak and fragile... i dont know what to do. my indigestion is really bad also.
what can i do?????????? i want to have a nice christmas, this time last year i was happy, although still anxious over certain things, but it wasn't chronic. now im a mess and i look awful, i cant even be bothered to wash my hair or wear make up anymore, becuase i feel so low, whats the point in trying to look nice when feeling like crap?
sorry about being a total mess and posting all the time, i just cant cope and really do think that im going to die. :(