Sonny Moonlight
21-12-10, 23:14
Hello.
In the past, I've suffered from severe panic attacks and it left me unable to eat and live a normal life, and eventually I was hospitalized due to my weight loss. Since then I've been progressing, but am still on bedrest.
It seems as if my panic disorder has developed into Pure 'O' OCD. I was panicking one night having the bizarre thought of being somewhere I wasn't and I reassured myself that I wasn't crazy and I'm obviously where I know I am, and that I'd be 'crazy' if I was thinking about aliens or something.
So I began thinking about aliens (irrational, I know.) a couple days later and I suddenly began to panic thinking I was going insane or crazy or developing delusions. I kept having this irrational thought that people around me were aliens, that they've planted my memory, etc. etc. and I knew these thoughts are really far out there but I couldn't disprove them, which made me panic even more. I dwelled on it for nearly a week and it feels like it's becoming true (I know it isn't), the thoughts are so persistent and I just cannot disprove them because my imagination always finds a way to throw me back into uncertainty, which makes me scared that I may actually believe this one day.
I'm also mildly depressed from being on bed rest for 7 weeks, constantly shaking due to anxiety.
The psychiatrist assured me it's Purely Obsessional OCD, but I really feel as if something more is wrong here.
In the past, I've suffered from severe panic attacks and it left me unable to eat and live a normal life, and eventually I was hospitalized due to my weight loss. Since then I've been progressing, but am still on bedrest.
It seems as if my panic disorder has developed into Pure 'O' OCD. I was panicking one night having the bizarre thought of being somewhere I wasn't and I reassured myself that I wasn't crazy and I'm obviously where I know I am, and that I'd be 'crazy' if I was thinking about aliens or something.
So I began thinking about aliens (irrational, I know.) a couple days later and I suddenly began to panic thinking I was going insane or crazy or developing delusions. I kept having this irrational thought that people around me were aliens, that they've planted my memory, etc. etc. and I knew these thoughts are really far out there but I couldn't disprove them, which made me panic even more. I dwelled on it for nearly a week and it feels like it's becoming true (I know it isn't), the thoughts are so persistent and I just cannot disprove them because my imagination always finds a way to throw me back into uncertainty, which makes me scared that I may actually believe this one day.
I'm also mildly depressed from being on bed rest for 7 weeks, constantly shaking due to anxiety.
The psychiatrist assured me it's Purely Obsessional OCD, but I really feel as if something more is wrong here.