Hereford Al
28-12-10, 14:59
Hi guys. Hope you are all OK and had a nice Christmas.
Things had been going rather well for me this year, up until about the start of October. Then I got into a bit of trouble at work (suspended for 2 weeks) and had to wait over a month and half for all the disciplinary stuff to be done with - Finally sorted, with no further action taken, on 14th December after being initially suspended on 28th October. This caused me a great deal of stress and I couldn't eat or sleep properly during this time.
Then a number of other issues (my best mate at work leaving for a new job, another piece of telling off from management, etc) combined and I have been in a hell of state since this time last week. I spent most of last Thursday and Friday in the office in a tearful mess.
I haven't had the constant feeling of anxiety and teariness like this for damn ages, and I feel so utterly utterly drained. Christmas was ruined, as I felt so ill that I couldn't eat anything, and am shattered yet I can't sleep because my mind is going 100mph all the time. I even took a Nytol tablet last night in the vain hope of some rest, but that didn't work either. So now I am just even more tired.
To top it all off, I think I may have a hernia or something as I felt something go "pop" on the left side of my groin a few weeks ago when I slipped on the ice. The pain has gotten quite bad (although I am not sure whether that is the anxiety causing it!) over the last few weeks, but I am terrified of going to the doctor incase it means that I have to have surgery and get signed off work - At a time when they already hate me (and are looking to make cuts) anyway!
I am on 40mg of Citalopram, and have been on that dose since increasing from 20mg in the summer after a small blip of a week or two caused by stress. Can I go any higher than 40mg or is it a case of the medication no lnger helping me and therefore time to ask for a change?
I really am terrified that I am going back to square one with the anxiety, and subsequent depression, because of all the crap that has happened recently. I can feel the big black clouds hanging over me constantly again.
Apologies in advance for being a miserable git :-(
Al
Things had been going rather well for me this year, up until about the start of October. Then I got into a bit of trouble at work (suspended for 2 weeks) and had to wait over a month and half for all the disciplinary stuff to be done with - Finally sorted, with no further action taken, on 14th December after being initially suspended on 28th October. This caused me a great deal of stress and I couldn't eat or sleep properly during this time.
Then a number of other issues (my best mate at work leaving for a new job, another piece of telling off from management, etc) combined and I have been in a hell of state since this time last week. I spent most of last Thursday and Friday in the office in a tearful mess.
I haven't had the constant feeling of anxiety and teariness like this for damn ages, and I feel so utterly utterly drained. Christmas was ruined, as I felt so ill that I couldn't eat anything, and am shattered yet I can't sleep because my mind is going 100mph all the time. I even took a Nytol tablet last night in the vain hope of some rest, but that didn't work either. So now I am just even more tired.
To top it all off, I think I may have a hernia or something as I felt something go "pop" on the left side of my groin a few weeks ago when I slipped on the ice. The pain has gotten quite bad (although I am not sure whether that is the anxiety causing it!) over the last few weeks, but I am terrified of going to the doctor incase it means that I have to have surgery and get signed off work - At a time when they already hate me (and are looking to make cuts) anyway!
I am on 40mg of Citalopram, and have been on that dose since increasing from 20mg in the summer after a small blip of a week or two caused by stress. Can I go any higher than 40mg or is it a case of the medication no lnger helping me and therefore time to ask for a change?
I really am terrified that I am going back to square one with the anxiety, and subsequent depression, because of all the crap that has happened recently. I can feel the big black clouds hanging over me constantly again.
Apologies in advance for being a miserable git :-(
Al