mrsflowers1975
30-12-10, 22:05
After googling different sites for hours i came across here and reading through the health anxiety page i wanted to cry as its totally me..and thank heavens there is a forum here too..hope i can help some people and gain some support too.
I had my first panic attack in April 2010..my friend died suddenly of a blood clot on the lung..we weren't close but she was only 42..2 days later i went from being a fairly calm rational person to thinking i couldnt breathe and was dying..if it could happen to her it could happen to me..right..i got steadily worse and felt totally detatched and alone with my thoughts..my wonderful husband was supportive..but i felt alone in it all..i love my husband and children and became utterly convinced either i was going to die or my husband was(he works away mon to fri sometimes on oil rigs)..went to see my gp who was very supportive..put me on peroxetine(sp) which within 48 hours had brought me out in awful hives..stopped taking them..i had been terrifed of taking them due to poss side affects and it confirmed my worst fears with side effects..over the summer i felt a lot better yet constantly felt on 'high alert' for some illness or other..my biggest fear is cancer and i had paranoia for moles i have or any bumps..causing anxiety and panic for anything up to a few days..discovered bach rescue remedy which really helped to take the edge of things..felt wonderful up to xmas day night..had started taking assorted multivitamins which i thought would help me be fitter and healthier..but seems i had a reaction to them..causing palpatations..well that sent me sky rocketing and been on mega high alert since then..convinced having a heart attack..dizziness and more than anything very very tearful..feel like a bad wife as my hubby is on his big break from work and he has a very quiet,tearful..irritated wife who cant actually tell him whats exactly the matter as i know i will sound crazy...:weep: x
I had my first panic attack in April 2010..my friend died suddenly of a blood clot on the lung..we weren't close but she was only 42..2 days later i went from being a fairly calm rational person to thinking i couldnt breathe and was dying..if it could happen to her it could happen to me..right..i got steadily worse and felt totally detatched and alone with my thoughts..my wonderful husband was supportive..but i felt alone in it all..i love my husband and children and became utterly convinced either i was going to die or my husband was(he works away mon to fri sometimes on oil rigs)..went to see my gp who was very supportive..put me on peroxetine(sp) which within 48 hours had brought me out in awful hives..stopped taking them..i had been terrifed of taking them due to poss side affects and it confirmed my worst fears with side effects..over the summer i felt a lot better yet constantly felt on 'high alert' for some illness or other..my biggest fear is cancer and i had paranoia for moles i have or any bumps..causing anxiety and panic for anything up to a few days..discovered bach rescue remedy which really helped to take the edge of things..felt wonderful up to xmas day night..had started taking assorted multivitamins which i thought would help me be fitter and healthier..but seems i had a reaction to them..causing palpatations..well that sent me sky rocketing and been on mega high alert since then..convinced having a heart attack..dizziness and more than anything very very tearful..feel like a bad wife as my hubby is on his big break from work and he has a very quiet,tearful..irritated wife who cant actually tell him whats exactly the matter as i know i will sound crazy...:weep: x