Starlet_24
24-03-06, 01:43
Ok, this might sound horrible but now I am terrified I have syphilis. I have never had an STD test and need. I heard this causes mental insanity and now I am terrified this might be a prob. For the first time in a long time, I am going to go and have myself thoroughly checked out. I am just worried that the reason my anxiety has been so severe and OCD and horrid thoughts could be due to syphilis. Anyways, I have searched the symptoms of it and it's like many other things.......vague odd symptoms but the one I fear is mental insanity.
Please someone do you know anythng about this disease?
My mom was talking about this and how this man ended up trying to kill ppl because he had this disease and did not know. all of a sudden, while she was talking, I started gettting really panicked and feared what if I end up losing my mind and killing ppl......this is terrifying. I try to rationalize it but since my thinking has been so muddled lately, I fear I am going insane. I do get horrible thoughts and they terrify me. I am so worried that I fear being alone now with my thoughts. Like what if I can't control it. Oh well. I prayed about it. I hope this doesn't mean I'm in the stages of utter insanity.
Please tell me what u all think.
Please someone do you know anythng about this disease?
My mom was talking about this and how this man ended up trying to kill ppl because he had this disease and did not know. all of a sudden, while she was talking, I started gettting really panicked and feared what if I end up losing my mind and killing ppl......this is terrifying. I try to rationalize it but since my thinking has been so muddled lately, I fear I am going insane. I do get horrible thoughts and they terrify me. I am so worried that I fear being alone now with my thoughts. Like what if I can't control it. Oh well. I prayed about it. I hope this doesn't mean I'm in the stages of utter insanity.
Please tell me what u all think.