mtatum4496
02-01-11, 15:49
Over the last year, my attacks have become much less severe. As result, my agoraphobia has begun to fade also, and I've begun to attend church again, going to an earlier service that draws a smaller crowd.
I probably should have taken something before I went to the service this morning, since I felt a little shaky around the edges anyway. But I didn't, and toward the middle of the service, a humdinger of a panic attack started in. Vision blurred slightly, lightheadedness, trouble focusing, feeling weak, wanting to run but feeling like my legs wouldn't support me, insides jumping up and down, etc - you all know all the different things one can feel with these attacks.
The service was a very traditional, very liturgical, nothing going on that one would think would trigger an attack. But as we all know, panic attacks don't need an apparent reason to blast in and ruin your day.
Somehow, I made it through, took some Xanax once I was back in my car and drove home. I normally stop for a Sunday paper after church, but not today. Even now (roughly a half hour later), I'm still shaky.
Today's attack is a bit disconcerting. I do still have attacks every now and then, but this is the worst one in some time - really making me feel down today. It's a shame, since the sun is shining and it is unseasonably warm, the perfect day for being out of doors.
Oh well, this too shall pass. And if I don't start feeling better in an hour or so I'll take the remainder of my daily allotment. Lately, I haven't needed more than half of the allotment on any given day (and some days none at all), but that may not be the case this go round.
I probably should have taken something before I went to the service this morning, since I felt a little shaky around the edges anyway. But I didn't, and toward the middle of the service, a humdinger of a panic attack started in. Vision blurred slightly, lightheadedness, trouble focusing, feeling weak, wanting to run but feeling like my legs wouldn't support me, insides jumping up and down, etc - you all know all the different things one can feel with these attacks.
The service was a very traditional, very liturgical, nothing going on that one would think would trigger an attack. But as we all know, panic attacks don't need an apparent reason to blast in and ruin your day.
Somehow, I made it through, took some Xanax once I was back in my car and drove home. I normally stop for a Sunday paper after church, but not today. Even now (roughly a half hour later), I'm still shaky.
Today's attack is a bit disconcerting. I do still have attacks every now and then, but this is the worst one in some time - really making me feel down today. It's a shame, since the sun is shining and it is unseasonably warm, the perfect day for being out of doors.
Oh well, this too shall pass. And if I don't start feeling better in an hour or so I'll take the remainder of my daily allotment. Lately, I haven't needed more than half of the allotment on any given day (and some days none at all), but that may not be the case this go round.