ToniDMB
13-03-04, 01:29
Well...it has been a rough week for me. Last friday night, my cousin was killed in a car accident. He was 16 years old. My universe was shaken. Through the numerous tears and heartache I have dealt with in the past week, I haven't suffered even the slightest bit of anxiety or panic, and I think I know why. For one thing, I haven't had even the slightest moment to dwell on myself. Traveling for the funeral, being with family, and grieving has taken up most of my time. And another realization that may have helped me is this, and I don't mean to go all "bible" on you folks, but please understand why and where I am coming from. Life is so short. I also believe our fate is out of our hands, and in a higher power, mine being God. I believe he has made a plan for me, so I don't have to worry anymore. When it is my time, it is my time. This world is MISERABLE. There is violence, hate, pollution, discrimination, confusion, abuse, and neglect everywhere you look. THERE IS A BETTER PLACE! My faith in knowing this has helped me cope and get over the loss of such an incredible young man. I sure hope I haven't upset anyone here, because that is definitly not my intentions. But maybe, just maybe if you tried to look at things in a different light, possibly it could help you with your anxiety as well.
I met with my therapist today and she was amazed at the way I was looking at everything. She was expecting this event to do nothing more than heighten my anxiety, certainly not help it, but perhaps I have learned something this week. Life is so very unpredictable. What I can't change, I can't change. Loving people, being the best person I can be, and helping others in any way I can will give me the strength to get through this. God is on my side, he will help me too.
Hugs and Love,
Toni
I met with my therapist today and she was amazed at the way I was looking at everything. She was expecting this event to do nothing more than heighten my anxiety, certainly not help it, but perhaps I have learned something this week. Life is so very unpredictable. What I can't change, I can't change. Loving people, being the best person I can be, and helping others in any way I can will give me the strength to get through this. God is on my side, he will help me too.
Hugs and Love,
Toni