losttheplot
04-01-11, 05:28
Just want to say hello and introduce myself a little.
I'm a 38 yr old male who isn't exactly sure what's wrong with my head but it ain't working right if you ask me. I feel anxious a lot of the time but don't know why, I've been feeling really down for a long time too. At times it becomes unbearable. Some days its all good, but when i feel anxious i get snappy, argumentative, untrusting. I struggle to sleep when i feel bad, getting by on just a couple of hours a day sometimes. I really struggle in relationships too, luckily i'm in the most stable one i've ever been in but i still struggle. Mainly around trust and fear of being cheated on. My partner is so understanding but i've pushed it to breaking point at times and she doesn't deserve this. All she has done is try to love me. I think the fear of losing her often causes me to go into self destruct mode and i push her away. My life feels to be spinning out of control at times. I feel so depressed when i get like this that i've contemplated suicide. My self worth has plummeted. I feel like i've nothing to offer her or the world in general. I also struggle with eating. I lost lots of weight and feel unattractive. Am i crackiing up or do other people feel like this??
Please help!
Thanks!
I'm a 38 yr old male who isn't exactly sure what's wrong with my head but it ain't working right if you ask me. I feel anxious a lot of the time but don't know why, I've been feeling really down for a long time too. At times it becomes unbearable. Some days its all good, but when i feel anxious i get snappy, argumentative, untrusting. I struggle to sleep when i feel bad, getting by on just a couple of hours a day sometimes. I really struggle in relationships too, luckily i'm in the most stable one i've ever been in but i still struggle. Mainly around trust and fear of being cheated on. My partner is so understanding but i've pushed it to breaking point at times and she doesn't deserve this. All she has done is try to love me. I think the fear of losing her often causes me to go into self destruct mode and i push her away. My life feels to be spinning out of control at times. I feel so depressed when i get like this that i've contemplated suicide. My self worth has plummeted. I feel like i've nothing to offer her or the world in general. I also struggle with eating. I lost lots of weight and feel unattractive. Am i crackiing up or do other people feel like this??
Please help!
Thanks!