B.B.M
10-01-11, 20:13
It's been a long time since I posted something here, since I've been making some progress, with CBT on the way, and with support, I'm on my way back...until I checked my throat.
For a Diagnosis, I had a Swollen Lynth node, A white patch in the back of my mouth (Could be more), my throat feels a little sore, a bit of difficulty swallowing quite heavy food, but can still eat, and no difficulty breathing. My tounge is white, I have some sort of painful lumps above my top wisdom teeth, and I can feel some sort of lump on the root of my mouth. I also have this feeling, like something is in the back of my throat, Like when you have food around the back of your throat.
I don't drink (Due to fear of Mouth Cancer), I don't smoke (This is due to choice), But I do have bad mouth Hygeine. In other words, I rarely brush my teeth. I try to, but I'm either distracted or due to some obsessive behaviour, It's not in the time frame I set.
I always knew this would come back to haunt me.
Thinking about this, makes me very upset. I'm still quite young (22 Years Old), and I haven't enjoyed myself due to this stupid anxiety, and fear of health and dying, and it could end up being Mouth Cancer. People around me drink and smoke like no tomorrow, yet I show signs of mouth Cancer.
It's a scary though.
I am planning to arrange a Dentist appointment, but there's a problem...I've never done it before. I haven't been to the dentist since 2002, that's around eight years. before that, My mother would arrange the appointments, but she won't tell me what she did.
Not only Do I think I have mouth Cancer, but I can't arrange anything to sort it out...I really need some help.
For a Diagnosis, I had a Swollen Lynth node, A white patch in the back of my mouth (Could be more), my throat feels a little sore, a bit of difficulty swallowing quite heavy food, but can still eat, and no difficulty breathing. My tounge is white, I have some sort of painful lumps above my top wisdom teeth, and I can feel some sort of lump on the root of my mouth. I also have this feeling, like something is in the back of my throat, Like when you have food around the back of your throat.
I don't drink (Due to fear of Mouth Cancer), I don't smoke (This is due to choice), But I do have bad mouth Hygeine. In other words, I rarely brush my teeth. I try to, but I'm either distracted or due to some obsessive behaviour, It's not in the time frame I set.
I always knew this would come back to haunt me.
Thinking about this, makes me very upset. I'm still quite young (22 Years Old), and I haven't enjoyed myself due to this stupid anxiety, and fear of health and dying, and it could end up being Mouth Cancer. People around me drink and smoke like no tomorrow, yet I show signs of mouth Cancer.
It's a scary though.
I am planning to arrange a Dentist appointment, but there's a problem...I've never done it before. I haven't been to the dentist since 2002, that's around eight years. before that, My mother would arrange the appointments, but she won't tell me what she did.
Not only Do I think I have mouth Cancer, but I can't arrange anything to sort it out...I really need some help.