honeyp1e
11-01-11, 19:54
why do i think think think ???? :lac:
i am not long recoverying from an eating disorder and still finding it hard ti just eat when am hungry the thing is am emetophobic and as i havent eaten for about 4months (started eating again 1month ago getting more & better by the days )
anyway i really think about how much am eating incase i over eat etc... i no i wont over eat as once i feel comfy i STOP eating but this can be at 4pm in the afternoon and i wont eat then till breakfast next morning
i want to eat better as i need to regain my weight again after losing it from not eating =(
but my main problem is NEGATIVE THINKING thats really getting me down i could wake up in the morning and have say 1 slice of toast and as am about to eat the other piece all my negative thoughts pop in **oh that is to much toast etc... and i will be like this all day then even if am hungry and i make myself a sandwich or something i obsess about oh just one bite or no more than half the sandwich or i will feel ill etc... some days i can just carry on eating but then somedays i just cant eat at all why wnt these thoughts just STOP or why cant i ignor them more???
the medication am on is just beta blockers (propranolol 80mg) i was on anti-depressions (citalopram 20mg) but i stopped taking them over 6months ago) should i get back on anti-depressions ???
i have an appointment in morning with a medication doctor o see what tablets are right for me so hopefully i will get bk on tablets soon and stop these thoughts
i am not long recoverying from an eating disorder and still finding it hard ti just eat when am hungry the thing is am emetophobic and as i havent eaten for about 4months (started eating again 1month ago getting more & better by the days )
anyway i really think about how much am eating incase i over eat etc... i no i wont over eat as once i feel comfy i STOP eating but this can be at 4pm in the afternoon and i wont eat then till breakfast next morning
i want to eat better as i need to regain my weight again after losing it from not eating =(
but my main problem is NEGATIVE THINKING thats really getting me down i could wake up in the morning and have say 1 slice of toast and as am about to eat the other piece all my negative thoughts pop in **oh that is to much toast etc... and i will be like this all day then even if am hungry and i make myself a sandwich or something i obsess about oh just one bite or no more than half the sandwich or i will feel ill etc... some days i can just carry on eating but then somedays i just cant eat at all why wnt these thoughts just STOP or why cant i ignor them more???
the medication am on is just beta blockers (propranolol 80mg) i was on anti-depressions (citalopram 20mg) but i stopped taking them over 6months ago) should i get back on anti-depressions ???
i have an appointment in morning with a medication doctor o see what tablets are right for me so hopefully i will get bk on tablets soon and stop these thoughts