lilac kitten
15-03-04, 12:32
Me and my partner went to look at a new car for him on Saturday, and I knew we would have to drive to High Wycombe. The journey there was OK, A33, M4 and A404, with my partner driving. Then he decides to buy the car. Panic!! How the hell can I drive back? My partner suggested I follow him on the motorway - no way I said, not for 25 miles on the M4.
We chose to go back on the back roads and I took a wrong turn at a roundabout and ended up on the A404. The dual carriageway was only 2 miles, but its classed as motorway this particular bit and I went into total panic and had to pull over. I realised I only had about a mile to go and my partner stayed behind me, but it was total panic. I really hate myself right now. 10 years ago I would have bombed up the M4 with not a care in the world, now I shake like a dog going to the vet. I knew I'd probably have to drive back, but as I said in a previous post, I'm going to start making the effort to do more and get out more by doing that I'm at least making a start.
Then on Sunday I went to take a couple of things back to Next and came over all faint, and like I was on a boat - weird. I do have a heavy cold so that didn't help. But I can't understand why I'm panicing so much over everything.
I've made my partner promise that every Sunday we can drive to Basingstoke on the M3 or Reading on the A33 and go round the motorway roundabout. Maybe by doing this I'll slowly get a bit better. I've done it before and can do it again. But I've never been this bad - I was absolutely petrified.
I have the right attitude, but I think its probably going to take some time.
I'll see how I get on this weekend and let you know.
Hope everybody else is good and had a good weekend.
Love
Ruth
x
We chose to go back on the back roads and I took a wrong turn at a roundabout and ended up on the A404. The dual carriageway was only 2 miles, but its classed as motorway this particular bit and I went into total panic and had to pull over. I realised I only had about a mile to go and my partner stayed behind me, but it was total panic. I really hate myself right now. 10 years ago I would have bombed up the M4 with not a care in the world, now I shake like a dog going to the vet. I knew I'd probably have to drive back, but as I said in a previous post, I'm going to start making the effort to do more and get out more by doing that I'm at least making a start.
Then on Sunday I went to take a couple of things back to Next and came over all faint, and like I was on a boat - weird. I do have a heavy cold so that didn't help. But I can't understand why I'm panicing so much over everything.
I've made my partner promise that every Sunday we can drive to Basingstoke on the M3 or Reading on the A33 and go round the motorway roundabout. Maybe by doing this I'll slowly get a bit better. I've done it before and can do it again. But I've never been this bad - I was absolutely petrified.
I have the right attitude, but I think its probably going to take some time.
I'll see how I get on this weekend and let you know.
Hope everybody else is good and had a good weekend.
Love
Ruth
x