harriethespy1
13-01-11, 20:47
hello all, i dont really know where to start, im 23, im upset, dont really know what to do about that
ill tell you what led me here, ive been having a bad day, and today it was all to much, and to be honest i was severely depressed about 5 years ago, but for the last few ive been keeping my head above water so to speak, positive thinking and the enevitable black spot where i am not good at all, but it always passes
i met a man , about 3 years ago, and i made a decision about being with, after getting to know him well enough, he told me he had genital warts
its three years later, i have them now, i love him dearly, but he isnt into me as he used to be, and i needed that, because when all else failed when i was feeling bad, he made me better
it doesnt work like that anymore, and now im dirty, and it seems for nothing, my heart hurts and my self esteem is gone, my depression is back full force
and i dont know why i just wrote that whole essay, except i just needed to get it out, you know its come to somethign when your in front of a computer crying alone not sure what to do right
no one in my life except him know about the warts, i cant explain to people why i feel so frightened of a future alone because i dont want people to know im damaged goods
i just need a chat, sorry to be a burden
ill tell you what led me here, ive been having a bad day, and today it was all to much, and to be honest i was severely depressed about 5 years ago, but for the last few ive been keeping my head above water so to speak, positive thinking and the enevitable black spot where i am not good at all, but it always passes
i met a man , about 3 years ago, and i made a decision about being with, after getting to know him well enough, he told me he had genital warts
its three years later, i have them now, i love him dearly, but he isnt into me as he used to be, and i needed that, because when all else failed when i was feeling bad, he made me better
it doesnt work like that anymore, and now im dirty, and it seems for nothing, my heart hurts and my self esteem is gone, my depression is back full force
and i dont know why i just wrote that whole essay, except i just needed to get it out, you know its come to somethign when your in front of a computer crying alone not sure what to do right
no one in my life except him know about the warts, i cant explain to people why i feel so frightened of a future alone because i dont want people to know im damaged goods
i just need a chat, sorry to be a burden