AnxiousM
14-01-11, 22:08
I thought i'd beat this anxiety thing but this week has been rough. After clutching onto something being wrong with my heart after some palps last Sunday it's been nothing but crap.
I don't think I'm sleeping very well. I'm constantly sighing and I feel like there's a stone in the centre of my chest behind my chest bone. Has all this breathing and then constant burping caused acid? I worried myself again reading that heart attack symptoms can be like heartburn... I've had this crap feeling in the centre of my chest all week. I've just been to the gym tonight and thought 'sod this, if my heart wants to pack in now is the time!' so I loaded up the squat rack with 150kg and did squats. Felt dizzy after a hard training session but no chest tightness. I came home and had a shower and surprise surprise the crappy sighing and weird chest is back.
I am not putting up with this!! I'm going to get on my bike tomorrow and push myself so hard my heart can beat out of my chest and onto the tarmac.
Sorry for the rant but I am SO fed up of not being able to be me and my body being hyper sensitive to every twinge and pain. Is anyone else like this?!
The only thing that is making me feel anxious is this lump, tightness or whatever it is in my chest, but is this anxiety itself?! I was fine last Saturday! The doctor checked my heart and blood pressure on Tuesday, both ok.
I get even more angry with myself as I don't want my fiancé to worry. It makes me upset and I can almost feel myself wanting to cry now. It feels like there's a massive cry in my chest that doesn't want to come out.
Anxiety is rubbish.
I apologise again for my rant. I am alone at home and had to get it off my chest.
M
I don't think I'm sleeping very well. I'm constantly sighing and I feel like there's a stone in the centre of my chest behind my chest bone. Has all this breathing and then constant burping caused acid? I worried myself again reading that heart attack symptoms can be like heartburn... I've had this crap feeling in the centre of my chest all week. I've just been to the gym tonight and thought 'sod this, if my heart wants to pack in now is the time!' so I loaded up the squat rack with 150kg and did squats. Felt dizzy after a hard training session but no chest tightness. I came home and had a shower and surprise surprise the crappy sighing and weird chest is back.
I am not putting up with this!! I'm going to get on my bike tomorrow and push myself so hard my heart can beat out of my chest and onto the tarmac.
Sorry for the rant but I am SO fed up of not being able to be me and my body being hyper sensitive to every twinge and pain. Is anyone else like this?!
The only thing that is making me feel anxious is this lump, tightness or whatever it is in my chest, but is this anxiety itself?! I was fine last Saturday! The doctor checked my heart and blood pressure on Tuesday, both ok.
I get even more angry with myself as I don't want my fiancé to worry. It makes me upset and I can almost feel myself wanting to cry now. It feels like there's a massive cry in my chest that doesn't want to come out.
Anxiety is rubbish.
I apologise again for my rant. I am alone at home and had to get it off my chest.
M