dont know where to turn

[sillymoo]

hi all,
god this is so not like me to post but at the moment i dont know what else to do.i wasent even sure where to post this as i am havin a rough time with anxiety and panic and agoraphobia.i just feel so lonely at the moment my depression is terrible.i cant even make it to the local shop now which i never usually have a problem with.im seriosly thinking off going on sick leave at work coz the thought of going to work makes me cry.i dont really have anyone to talk to and i hate talking to my beloved other half as i hate to worry him.i know ive upset a few people on here thought not explaining myself properly(you know who you are)and i want to apologize again for that .i just dont know what to do anymore i just feel so helpless and worthless .sorry to go on but i just dont know what to do i just need alittle support sorry again mooxXx

[Piglet]

Moo so sorry to hear that mate.

I think you may feel better if you did tell the other half though as its the bottling it up that adds more tension???

What sort of help have you had so far ie; CBT or medication etc ????

Love Piglet

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[sillymoo]

thanx for ur reply piglet.yeah maybe its time i told craig how im feeling ive tried fighting the way i feel and putting on the happy face but im just so tired of fighting now.
ive had 6 weeks of cbt but it didnt seem enough.

[Piglet]

I would mate - it will take some pressure off.

Big hug and let us know how you get on.

Love Piglet xx

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[sillymoo]

thanx piglet.its nice to know someone cares.im sure i will be fine mooxXx

[Keitharcher]

Hiya silly

Sorry to hear you are having a bad time of it at the moment, have you tried relaxation, also i believe that piglet is right you should tell the other half, a problem shared is a problem halved. Try to look for the positives no matter how small, every positive you find is a mini victory, if you get enough mini vistories you win battles if you win enough battles you win the war and defaet this horrible thing. Will be willing you to get better

Keith

[sillymoo]

thanx keith.yeah im gonna tell my other half i cant keep pretending.but deep down i think he knows im not at my best.i managed to drag myself to town today with my mum hated every minute of it but at least its a start.just gotta be positive thanx 4 takin the time to reply im means alot to me:Dtake care luv mooxXx

[Piglet]

Just saying hello and catching up to see if you managed to talk???

Love Piglet x

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[sillymoo]

aww ty piglet im gonna try tonight.i just dont want to upset him and make him worry bout me as i know this is just a blip and i will feel better soon.thanx 4 ur reply hun i really does lift u alittle thanx take care mooxXx

[Piglet]

Your welcome hun - like you it may pass in few days :D

Love Piglet x

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[sillymoo]

thanx for ur reply again piglet.i do feel alittle better today i even managed to go to the local shop!!!!:Dso that has lifted me alittle.hopefully it just been a few horrible days for me

[Piglet]

Oh that is brilliant hun - well done!!!

I know that must be hard as I can't get out on my own at the moment. Not too bad if I have any of my teenagers with me though.

Perhaps see how you go for a few days and then decide if a 'chat' is needed or not!!!

Take care

Piglet xx

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[sillymoo]

thanx piglet ur great!yeah i think thats a good idea!!dont want to spill the beans then feel fine in a couple of days!im just keeping my fingers crossed!!!thanx again for ur replys luv mooxXx

[W.I.F.T.S.]

Hi Moo,

I know exactly how you feel. I hate going to work, but thankfully I need to for the money and I'd get so much abuse if I didn't, so I really don't have any choice. Sometimes that's the best way to face your fears. I had a blood test this week and I hate them because or needles, doctors and in case they find that something is terribly wrong with me and I almost didn't go to it, but I told myself that I'll only have to face it another time, so just get on with it and get it over and done with- it worked and there was nothing to it, really.

I'm not sure if you are one of those people who gets family and friends telling you to pull yourself together and get on with it? I am and it's not helpful when they say it because it just shows that they have no patience, tolerance or understanding for the way that you feel and they can't really be bothered with it. i told my family and friends that I wasn't well and most of them thought it was an excuse for my appalling behaviour or laziness and thought even less of me for not taking responsibility for my actions, but it was a weight off my shoulders none-the-less.

it's important to realise that you're not alone and that you're not strange or crazy.

I know how hard it is, I've been going through it for 3 years and everytime you think you have it sussed it mutates into something else and you have to learn how to deal with that. But the best way that I have found to deal with it is to face it. i don't want to be housebound or unable to go away from home. Whenever I have faced a fear I have normally found it to be really, really easy and it's only then that I feel free and happy.



Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.

[sillymoo]

thanx 4 ur reply wishi found this sooner my partner knows of my illness but because im not as bad as i was i think he thinks im cured!!!i keep it to myself if i feel bad as he gets upset and thinks im being silly!!!!i think he finds it hard to understand.my family dont understand why im the way i am and ive lost alot of friends due 2 my illness.but i will keep plodding on!!im sure one day i will beat this take care luv mooxXx

[Piglet]

Your doin ok hun and it was nice to chat to yesterday :D

Piglet x

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[sillymoo]

thanx piglet.it was nice to talk to you too!:Dnot feeling to bad today ive managed to go to the shop again!!abit panicky but i did it!!!! thanx 4 ur reply hun take care mooxXx