pia
20-01-11, 10:35
Hiya,
Not sure if this is the right section of the forum to post this or not. Was just wondering if anyone had any advice, or experience of something similar:shrug:
Ok, ive been feeling really positive the last couple of days(for me anyhow!) am weaning myself off seroxat, have stopped drinking and Smoking, started running, and got myself on a training course. Have been feeling almost proud of myself! My disturbing thoughts had stopped and and have been feeling a lot calmer.
All this changed so suddenly yesterday though after a comment my boyfriend made to me. It was a really vulgar comment (bout my appearance) he meant it as a joke (i think) but it upset me so much it was all i could do not to burst into tears there and then. I tried really hard not to let it show how hurt and angry i was (which is somethin i do a lot) and so we went shopping as planned. He pretty much ignored me for all of the journey there (possibly cause he was upset too, im not sure) this made me feel more and more panicky as i tend to associate this silence with the onset of an angry/violent outburst (not from him, but from family members when i was a child) anyway, to cut a long and rambling story short i ended up having a panic attack in the shopping centre(i felt it coming and so took myself off to the ladies out of the way. Havnt been able to stop crying since, havnt had an attack for months- ifeel like ive let myself down as i was doing so well. :weep: Am trying to make sense of it but its so confusing: have i got an emotionally abusive partner (he does say unkind things to me quite a lot, but then he says them jokingly, so i wonder if i am overreacting???? )
AM i overreacting to a silly comment which he meant nothing by? is this a normal reaction to feeling criticed and bullied?
Sorry this is so long winded, i just feel so down about it and too stupid to try and explain it to him.
Thanks for reading. xx
Not sure if this is the right section of the forum to post this or not. Was just wondering if anyone had any advice, or experience of something similar:shrug:
Ok, ive been feeling really positive the last couple of days(for me anyhow!) am weaning myself off seroxat, have stopped drinking and Smoking, started running, and got myself on a training course. Have been feeling almost proud of myself! My disturbing thoughts had stopped and and have been feeling a lot calmer.
All this changed so suddenly yesterday though after a comment my boyfriend made to me. It was a really vulgar comment (bout my appearance) he meant it as a joke (i think) but it upset me so much it was all i could do not to burst into tears there and then. I tried really hard not to let it show how hurt and angry i was (which is somethin i do a lot) and so we went shopping as planned. He pretty much ignored me for all of the journey there (possibly cause he was upset too, im not sure) this made me feel more and more panicky as i tend to associate this silence with the onset of an angry/violent outburst (not from him, but from family members when i was a child) anyway, to cut a long and rambling story short i ended up having a panic attack in the shopping centre(i felt it coming and so took myself off to the ladies out of the way. Havnt been able to stop crying since, havnt had an attack for months- ifeel like ive let myself down as i was doing so well. :weep: Am trying to make sense of it but its so confusing: have i got an emotionally abusive partner (he does say unkind things to me quite a lot, but then he says them jokingly, so i wonder if i am overreacting???? )
AM i overreacting to a silly comment which he meant nothing by? is this a normal reaction to feeling criticed and bullied?
Sorry this is so long winded, i just feel so down about it and too stupid to try and explain it to him.
Thanks for reading. xx