Ashtonsmam
29-03-06, 13:19
Hi everyone,,im new to this site and i hope you can help me,,
i had an adverse reaction to an antidepressant in july last year which gave me urges and "visions" of hurting myself and my baby,,i ended up going into a mother and baby unit for help and meds,,
now 9 months on i can not get the thoughts of me hurting myself and my baby out of my head,,im constantly "testing" myself when im in the house alone with him,,im always asking myself if i could still want to hurt or kill myself or my baby,,and im convinced them urges and vision will return even although im no longer on the med that triggered it,,i also have severe anxiety with constant symptoms and these thoughts i cant get out of my head make this anxiety MUCH worse,,i just cant get out of this way of thinking,,its really stopping me enjoying the time i have with my son as i think i will want to hurt or kill him again,,
i had an adverse reaction to an antidepressant in july last year which gave me urges and "visions" of hurting myself and my baby,,i ended up going into a mother and baby unit for help and meds,,
now 9 months on i can not get the thoughts of me hurting myself and my baby out of my head,,im constantly "testing" myself when im in the house alone with him,,im always asking myself if i could still want to hurt or kill myself or my baby,,and im convinced them urges and vision will return even although im no longer on the med that triggered it,,i also have severe anxiety with constant symptoms and these thoughts i cant get out of my head make this anxiety MUCH worse,,i just cant get out of this way of thinking,,its really stopping me enjoying the time i have with my son as i think i will want to hurt or kill him again,,