Em.ma
25-01-11, 20:29
today has been an okish day BUT my pain went away most of day but now is back in nose and forehead. also had a throbbing pain for a few seconds earlier on in temple.
also keep getting my eyes feeling funny. like im going to black out. i keep blinking loads sometimes (about 10 times in a second it feels like) they also ache and feel sore and sometimes stinging. what i want to know is why i had that headache for 3 days again.... i had bad sinus issues b4 then it went for a week (still had it mild) and then it came back again/
also today my mum used bleach in my room and polish and now im scared of getting that in my mouth and suffocating. Had bad nausea at start of day. still worried about an underlying infection from having a cold and sinus issues.
anyway the main point of this post was about my families attitude towards my HA. earlier on my mum came in my room looking at the slight damp on my wall. i asked her if it was allright and she snapped at me, started shouting and throwing things around saying "you need to stop thinking this la la la" she then went to tell my dad who had an even bigger go at me. then when i tried to explain she just shouted "im your mother be quiet i know whats best for you". ( my mum can not read or write either) shes always been this way with me and has never listend to my opinion. she has ran around the house in rage once with a real cricket bat threating to hit me with it :\. she also threw a load of shoes at me one time aswell. My nan is the only one i can talk to but shes on holiday for 2 months. My nan worked in a hospital for 27 years so shes the only one that can even begin to understand.
they refuse to go to my counessing session with me in a few weeks and wont fill in the form that got sent to them to fill in :(. the claim i dont need help and its all in my head and i just need to forgot about it. I spent the evening in my room in tears over there comments.
i have so much pain in my shoulders, back, chest and neck now. i cant even touch there without cringing in pain.
Also another thing is for months now ive been having dreams of me dying or my friends dying in tragic accidents. i had one last night and i suddenly jotled up in my bed. I also have dreams were people have/get serious illnesses.
I feel like every day im slowly dying.
Also now i have the pain back again in my nose mainly and my head- my nose really hurts but the head is no were near as bad.
also find out results from a swab i had taken below to check for infection- i am dreading it :(
also keep getting my eyes feeling funny. like im going to black out. i keep blinking loads sometimes (about 10 times in a second it feels like) they also ache and feel sore and sometimes stinging. what i want to know is why i had that headache for 3 days again.... i had bad sinus issues b4 then it went for a week (still had it mild) and then it came back again/
also today my mum used bleach in my room and polish and now im scared of getting that in my mouth and suffocating. Had bad nausea at start of day. still worried about an underlying infection from having a cold and sinus issues.
anyway the main point of this post was about my families attitude towards my HA. earlier on my mum came in my room looking at the slight damp on my wall. i asked her if it was allright and she snapped at me, started shouting and throwing things around saying "you need to stop thinking this la la la" she then went to tell my dad who had an even bigger go at me. then when i tried to explain she just shouted "im your mother be quiet i know whats best for you". ( my mum can not read or write either) shes always been this way with me and has never listend to my opinion. she has ran around the house in rage once with a real cricket bat threating to hit me with it :\. she also threw a load of shoes at me one time aswell. My nan is the only one i can talk to but shes on holiday for 2 months. My nan worked in a hospital for 27 years so shes the only one that can even begin to understand.
they refuse to go to my counessing session with me in a few weeks and wont fill in the form that got sent to them to fill in :(. the claim i dont need help and its all in my head and i just need to forgot about it. I spent the evening in my room in tears over there comments.
i have so much pain in my shoulders, back, chest and neck now. i cant even touch there without cringing in pain.
Also another thing is for months now ive been having dreams of me dying or my friends dying in tragic accidents. i had one last night and i suddenly jotled up in my bed. I also have dreams were people have/get serious illnesses.
I feel like every day im slowly dying.
Also now i have the pain back again in my nose mainly and my head- my nose really hurts but the head is no were near as bad.
also find out results from a swab i had taken below to check for infection- i am dreading it :(