frozenwithfear
26-01-11, 17:37
Today I went for a routine eye test. They were fine, but when they took pictures to see behind my retina, there was a blur on one of them. I have now been referred to a retina specialist. I am terrified. The optician said I would not go blind and that it was not a tumour, but I dont believe him. I'm already doing through a major panic about my bowels, and have to have an examination tomorrow, so this the last straw.
The optician did say I might have had this since childhood, and of course I've googled all afternoon. From what I've read, eye tumours are incredibly rare, and even if you do have one its usually benign. There are some really, really rare diseases if you look hard enough to fine them. I've looked at pictures and comparing them with mine, mine does, indeed look nothing sinister. However, in my current state of mind, I just dont think I can take any more stress, and I feel close to a breakdown.
Despite trying to be sensible and calm, it seems I no longer have any control over my emotions. This sense of doom is taking over my life. It's tiring, and nothing or no one will convince me that I'm going to be OK. I just don't know what to do to deal with this.
The optician did say I might have had this since childhood, and of course I've googled all afternoon. From what I've read, eye tumours are incredibly rare, and even if you do have one its usually benign. There are some really, really rare diseases if you look hard enough to fine them. I've looked at pictures and comparing them with mine, mine does, indeed look nothing sinister. However, in my current state of mind, I just dont think I can take any more stress, and I feel close to a breakdown.
Despite trying to be sensible and calm, it seems I no longer have any control over my emotions. This sense of doom is taking over my life. It's tiring, and nothing or no one will convince me that I'm going to be OK. I just don't know what to do to deal with this.