lorenza
28-01-11, 06:27
Woke myself up from a nightmare where my GP was telling me that the test results weren't conclusive and I did actually have HIV, and have spent the last three hours trying to distract myself from the worry. I know my doctor isn't worried at all, she doesn't even think my partner should be tested because of the near impossibility of any risk.
I know I had a negative result
I also can't convince myself that it hadn't shown up yet or that someone has injected me whilst i was drunk or even that someone had sex with me whilst i was drunk and i didn't realise.
IRRATIONAL THOUGHTS. I know this, so why can I not get rid of that nagging fear? I don't want to keep being tested every couple of months just to keep myself going.
I know I had a negative result
I also can't convince myself that it hadn't shown up yet or that someone has injected me whilst i was drunk or even that someone had sex with me whilst i was drunk and i didn't realise.
IRRATIONAL THOUGHTS. I know this, so why can I not get rid of that nagging fear? I don't want to keep being tested every couple of months just to keep myself going.