allergyphobia
31-01-11, 16:03
Hi every one :hugs:
Just thought I would keep you all updated on my progress, as it helps me too and some of you might want to read it!
So this week I had the dentist emergency that I posted about... I was completely nervous beforehand but as soon as I got there and explained my fears I felt like I could handle the situation - the expectation was DEFINITELY worse. I am taking my antibiotics with no worries :smile:
I've been getting on well with my CBT - but I mostly use the sessions as a sort of fortnightly review, where we discuss what I have done in my own time. I feel like all of the tools I have been shown in these times are so so valuable - but I am almost feel as though I know what I need to do now, and I almost feel like I don't need to keep the sessions going. My therapist changes his contract at the end of March so I only have 2 sessions left before I would have to be referred to somebody else possibly -- so I think I may just carry on with the support of my boyfriend who is an absolute gem!
I'm getting a lot braver. Yesterday, I went for another meal! In a completely new restaurant. We went out for lunch, and sat by the window looking out on the canal. It was lovely. I've discovered it's a great idea when I do something like that to make sure I don't eat brekkie - I was RAVENOUS yesterday which I think helped a lot... I finished off my whole meal and managed a drink too (I've been funny about cutlery, glasses etc in the past)...
Then we went for a little walk, and this sounds silly to most people but we bought some jelly snake sweets, ones I had never had before - they had apple juice and paprika in as flavourings - both BIG fears, and I ate them! Not in a safe place, not at home, but out and about walking around... and they were yummy!
As i mentioned in another thread I'm starting some volunteering. I've got my first meeting next week to sit on an events committee for a charity. I work full time at the moment but I think I feel very unfulfilled in my job and I'm hoping some volunteering will build up my CV and expose me to more things I want to do. I'm really excited about it :biggrin:
So yeh, step by step I'm starting to build up my hard work and progress. I find documenting the things I have done really helps. It's about feeling that fear and doing it anyway... everything every one has always told me.. then you start to do it and think ohhh yeah, i get it!!
Thanks for reading this far if you've got this far!! My boyfriend and I are moving in together in 2 weeks and I actually can't wait. Having my first proper home (renting a flat from my parents so we can make it our own) in 5 years... I am so excited!!!!!! :yahoo:
Hope everybody is well and dandy...
Lots of love
Amber xx :flowers:
Just thought I would keep you all updated on my progress, as it helps me too and some of you might want to read it!
So this week I had the dentist emergency that I posted about... I was completely nervous beforehand but as soon as I got there and explained my fears I felt like I could handle the situation - the expectation was DEFINITELY worse. I am taking my antibiotics with no worries :smile:
I've been getting on well with my CBT - but I mostly use the sessions as a sort of fortnightly review, where we discuss what I have done in my own time. I feel like all of the tools I have been shown in these times are so so valuable - but I am almost feel as though I know what I need to do now, and I almost feel like I don't need to keep the sessions going. My therapist changes his contract at the end of March so I only have 2 sessions left before I would have to be referred to somebody else possibly -- so I think I may just carry on with the support of my boyfriend who is an absolute gem!
I'm getting a lot braver. Yesterday, I went for another meal! In a completely new restaurant. We went out for lunch, and sat by the window looking out on the canal. It was lovely. I've discovered it's a great idea when I do something like that to make sure I don't eat brekkie - I was RAVENOUS yesterday which I think helped a lot... I finished off my whole meal and managed a drink too (I've been funny about cutlery, glasses etc in the past)...
Then we went for a little walk, and this sounds silly to most people but we bought some jelly snake sweets, ones I had never had before - they had apple juice and paprika in as flavourings - both BIG fears, and I ate them! Not in a safe place, not at home, but out and about walking around... and they were yummy!
As i mentioned in another thread I'm starting some volunteering. I've got my first meeting next week to sit on an events committee for a charity. I work full time at the moment but I think I feel very unfulfilled in my job and I'm hoping some volunteering will build up my CV and expose me to more things I want to do. I'm really excited about it :biggrin:
So yeh, step by step I'm starting to build up my hard work and progress. I find documenting the things I have done really helps. It's about feeling that fear and doing it anyway... everything every one has always told me.. then you start to do it and think ohhh yeah, i get it!!
Thanks for reading this far if you've got this far!! My boyfriend and I are moving in together in 2 weeks and I actually can't wait. Having my first proper home (renting a flat from my parents so we can make it our own) in 5 years... I am so excited!!!!!! :yahoo:
Hope everybody is well and dandy...
Lots of love
Amber xx :flowers: