miniholly
05-02-11, 14:06
hi everyone,
since yesterday for no apparent reason i've been really really worried to the point where i've nearly been sick.
i keep thinking all of these horrible thoughts like what if my boyfriend found someone else and decided to just leave me one day, or what if my mum got seriously ill and i'd have no mum or dad.
i'm also in a college course i really don't enjoy as i've been put in the bottom set for it as i never did my GCSE's, so i feel really depressed and dissapointed in myself for not taking my GCSE's, i really don't want to carry on doing my course as i have no interest for it anymore but i've been told to try and stick it out til the end of the year so i have a certificate in it until i go on to do my GCSE's and do a hairdressing course which i originally wanted to do in the first place, but i really can't cope with it, i'm getting bullied, the teachers are so unsupportive and i just find the course plain boring and i feel as though i can't get on with my work.
i feel so anxious and on edge and ill i just have no idea what to do, i found myself taking one of my mums anti depressants just to see if that would relieve the feeling if only for a bit. it's so horrible and i feel as though i'm at my wits end.
i ended up taking a citalopram which i haven't done for nearly a year now, i feel as though my life is on a downward spiral. i've found counselling doesn't help at all or seeing a psychatrist, right now all i want is a big cuddle off my boyfriend :( i feel so terrible and i just want all this anxiety to stop xxx
since yesterday for no apparent reason i've been really really worried to the point where i've nearly been sick.
i keep thinking all of these horrible thoughts like what if my boyfriend found someone else and decided to just leave me one day, or what if my mum got seriously ill and i'd have no mum or dad.
i'm also in a college course i really don't enjoy as i've been put in the bottom set for it as i never did my GCSE's, so i feel really depressed and dissapointed in myself for not taking my GCSE's, i really don't want to carry on doing my course as i have no interest for it anymore but i've been told to try and stick it out til the end of the year so i have a certificate in it until i go on to do my GCSE's and do a hairdressing course which i originally wanted to do in the first place, but i really can't cope with it, i'm getting bullied, the teachers are so unsupportive and i just find the course plain boring and i feel as though i can't get on with my work.
i feel so anxious and on edge and ill i just have no idea what to do, i found myself taking one of my mums anti depressants just to see if that would relieve the feeling if only for a bit. it's so horrible and i feel as though i'm at my wits end.
i ended up taking a citalopram which i haven't done for nearly a year now, i feel as though my life is on a downward spiral. i've found counselling doesn't help at all or seeing a psychatrist, right now all i want is a big cuddle off my boyfriend :( i feel so terrible and i just want all this anxiety to stop xxx