sunshine777
06-02-11, 18:00
hi
i try so hard to get through things been suffering for so many years - was working full time etc - that was hard as feel i cant relate to anyone - kept on asking help from the nhs - got some help through work - in july my mum got diagnosed with lung cancer a mth later was told she has breast cancer too - i tried to struggle on with my probs look after my mum and work - in nov hit a brick wall think i had a breakdown i was in and out of ane and docs surgery - crisis team didnt help me much seemed to patronise me - anyway i got through it it wsa the darkest hardest time of my life and i obviously stressed my mum - work kept on ringing me each week i told them to stop as was causing me more anxiety whilst i was off ill - things were picking up i got offered dbt therapy - i worked so hard at it to change my life even though i was in so much pain - anyway struggled 2 weeks ago - therapist got worried - then bang was hit in face my mum had a mini stroke fri - it feels like my whole world has been rocked again - im so exhaused and scared for my mum - ive not been sleeping - the pain has hit me so hard again - i cant stop crying when im alone - not sure what to do this time - feel im being a nuisance work want a meeting tue to discuss hrs for when i return i dont feel up to it
i try so hard to get through things been suffering for so many years - was working full time etc - that was hard as feel i cant relate to anyone - kept on asking help from the nhs - got some help through work - in july my mum got diagnosed with lung cancer a mth later was told she has breast cancer too - i tried to struggle on with my probs look after my mum and work - in nov hit a brick wall think i had a breakdown i was in and out of ane and docs surgery - crisis team didnt help me much seemed to patronise me - anyway i got through it it wsa the darkest hardest time of my life and i obviously stressed my mum - work kept on ringing me each week i told them to stop as was causing me more anxiety whilst i was off ill - things were picking up i got offered dbt therapy - i worked so hard at it to change my life even though i was in so much pain - anyway struggled 2 weeks ago - therapist got worried - then bang was hit in face my mum had a mini stroke fri - it feels like my whole world has been rocked again - im so exhaused and scared for my mum - ive not been sleeping - the pain has hit me so hard again - i cant stop crying when im alone - not sure what to do this time - feel im being a nuisance work want a meeting tue to discuss hrs for when i return i dont feel up to it