Am I doing the right thing?

[dragonfly82]

I have suffered from Health Anxiety for many years and have only recently realized that is what I am suffering from. It mainly centers around HIV but can branch in to other things. I have had tests before and they have been negative. I didn't have a relationship for 5 years and then I had a brief relationship with someone. I am still in touch with him, I don't have any real reason to be worried but i am again. I am in a committed relationship now and have discussed all aspects of this with my partner. The brief relationship was 2 years ago. I have no symptoms and I am still in touch with him and he has not said anything and has had relationships since.

I have decided to not have a test as it adds to the worry. Makes it real I guess. But what I have wanted to do for a while is give blood. I know they test all blood samples so I was wondering if anyone else has done this or whether I am doing the right thing.

I believe doing this will make it into a positive thing.