misskitty
12-02-11, 12:44
I have posted before, but I need some reassurance please. I had my first major panic attack a few weeks ago. I had moved area to be with my boyfriend.. been there for about a month and had a few 'moments' but nothing big.. then I was on the phone to my mum one day and it just started.. the worse panic attack I think i ever had.. thought i was literally going mad.. and was convinced I had forgotten my dad, was about to forget my mum (who I was on the phone too??) etc.. anyway she managed to calm me down and then that evening when my boyf got home he toldme to pack up some stuff and he bought me back to my flat.
I just dont understand where this panic came from.. I had been doing so well, in a new town, new people, new house and new situation with my boyf being there every night etc.. and I seemed to be happy and coping and then wham!!
On the way back to my flat I got more panic attacks, I was terrified of coming home, and maybe it not feeling like 'home' anymore.. and thats whats happened :weep:
Now I feel lost. I cant seemtop switch my head off.. panic attacks are being kept away but feeling anxious all the time, with some really frighhtning thoughts. Can anyone help with suggestions of why I would cope so well and then get the worst panic out of the blue.. does it mean I wsnt really coping with the move deep down? I am so scared right now.. and got to make the desicion whteher to go back to the house by weds.. freeking out right now, sorry for typing errors but I'm panicing :(
I just dont understand where this panic came from.. I had been doing so well, in a new town, new people, new house and new situation with my boyf being there every night etc.. and I seemed to be happy and coping and then wham!!
On the way back to my flat I got more panic attacks, I was terrified of coming home, and maybe it not feeling like 'home' anymore.. and thats whats happened :weep:
Now I feel lost. I cant seemtop switch my head off.. panic attacks are being kept away but feeling anxious all the time, with some really frighhtning thoughts. Can anyone help with suggestions of why I would cope so well and then get the worst panic out of the blue.. does it mean I wsnt really coping with the move deep down? I am so scared right now.. and got to make the desicion whteher to go back to the house by weds.. freeking out right now, sorry for typing errors but I'm panicing :(