Wilma101
17-02-11, 21:46
Hi all, and thank you for reading this, please help if you can, don't want to sound pathetic but i've reached the point where I literally cannot face another day like this, but tomorrow will come as it does for all of us...
My anxiety levels have spiralled out of control, every night i sit here and think, right, tomorrow i have to cope no matter what, then fall to bits.
Not sleeping, adrenaline rushes keeping me awake and frustrated all night - when i get up in the morning i'm already having a panic attack - destroys my resolve before i even get started.... it eases slightly at times during the day, but only slightly, then winds up again ALL DAY severe nausea, heart racing like its thumping out of my chest, feeling faint - I know these symptoms wont kill me, i know what they are "just adrenaline" but i CANNOT cope with them, not all day....
Of course then there's the racing thoughts, I'm winding myself up more i know, thinking there's no way out, i'm desperate - I've had advice saying "just let it be there" - I can hold out for a while but then it overwhelms me, it's just constant.
I'm so desperate for relief - I've taken a diazepam tonight, which does calm me down thank god, but i'm getting terrified that i'm gonna start taking them regularly because I can't see another way out.
I'm not a weak person, I've overcome some huge challenges in my life, always been proud of myself and never given up, but now i'm reduced to a quivering wreck, desperately phoning hotlines and begging for help.
Can't take antidepressants due to serotonin reaction, the only option is benzos, should i take them anyway and deal with the consequences later?? God i just don't know, that can't be good. Does anybody have any coping strategies, maybe for first thing in the morning to try and head it off a bit....
A vague request I know, but any and all suggestions and help would be greatly appreciated....... thanks
My anxiety levels have spiralled out of control, every night i sit here and think, right, tomorrow i have to cope no matter what, then fall to bits.
Not sleeping, adrenaline rushes keeping me awake and frustrated all night - when i get up in the morning i'm already having a panic attack - destroys my resolve before i even get started.... it eases slightly at times during the day, but only slightly, then winds up again ALL DAY severe nausea, heart racing like its thumping out of my chest, feeling faint - I know these symptoms wont kill me, i know what they are "just adrenaline" but i CANNOT cope with them, not all day....
Of course then there's the racing thoughts, I'm winding myself up more i know, thinking there's no way out, i'm desperate - I've had advice saying "just let it be there" - I can hold out for a while but then it overwhelms me, it's just constant.
I'm so desperate for relief - I've taken a diazepam tonight, which does calm me down thank god, but i'm getting terrified that i'm gonna start taking them regularly because I can't see another way out.
I'm not a weak person, I've overcome some huge challenges in my life, always been proud of myself and never given up, but now i'm reduced to a quivering wreck, desperately phoning hotlines and begging for help.
Can't take antidepressants due to serotonin reaction, the only option is benzos, should i take them anyway and deal with the consequences later?? God i just don't know, that can't be good. Does anybody have any coping strategies, maybe for first thing in the morning to try and head it off a bit....
A vague request I know, but any and all suggestions and help would be greatly appreciated....... thanks